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My appointment went okay yesterday. Dr. Simon said that we shouldn't be TTC for three months, which we were disappointed upon hearing. I have an appointment scheduled in three months with him to review our options. Hopefully by then I'll have regular periods. He may want to have Michael do another semen analysis and he may want me to go on clomid/ ( Read more... ) -
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I know there are probably still hormones in my system, but I'm wondering when I'll ever feel normal again. An awesome friend at work said today he hopes my spirited personality comes back soon. We talked; he said they were still praying for me. I cried. It's probably also normal to feel hopeless, but I don't want to feel hopeless. I feel like I won ( Read more... ) -
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I got out of the house yesterday and went to dinner with Michael, it felt good to get out for a while. Unfortunately, at dinner, we were seated next to a family with three children and an 8 week old baby. I couldn't look at them. Just couldn't do it. I told Michael that I was going to have to get used to babies and pregant women being everywhere. ( Read more... ) -
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I feel much better physically. I'm up and down emotionally, obviously. It was raining and crappy outside all day yesterday, and it really reflected my mood. I had a few breakdowns. Today it's nice and sunny, so that should help me perk up a bit. I remember after being told there was no heartbeat last Friday, when we left the office, I made a ( Read more... ) -
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I went ahead and had a D&C done today, and I feel so much better that it's now over. The Dr. said that if I hadn't done it, I would've kept bleeding for at least another 2 weeks. I don't think my body or my mind could have taken it. Now I can heal physically. -
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Back to work tomorrow. I see it being a hard day. It's going to suck. I don't even think I can readily prepare for it. I wish I didn't have to go in. The grief comes and goes now, sadness is always there. -
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I had a bad day. The cramping earlier today was almost unbearable and I've been bleeding a lot. Michael filled my prescription for 800mg Motrin, which helped a bit, but I was still considering going to the ER to get a D&C until the pain finally subsided a few hours later. I kept telling him I didn't know if I could do it. I'm trying pass it on my ( Read more... ) -
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Things went fine at the appointment. Baby is okay, the hearbeat is at 100 now, and I'll be 7 weeks tomorrow. The Dr. said that he could see some blood somewhere, but it didn't seem too serious. He said no Dr. likes to see spotting with pregnancy, but it happens with a lot of women. So I'm much calmer and mentally sane now. YAY! -
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I have another ultrasound tomorrow. Things are scary. I'm a wreck. I've been spotting brown since last Thurday, and I started noticing small brown specks of ...something in the toilet when I pee. It's not always there, but I'm just so scared. 8:30 tomorrow morning. We're really praying our little one is still okay in there.