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new life...new journal

i feel, as they say, "over worked and under paid". lost, confused. i feel used to the fullest extent possible. ive been called terrible, horrible, undeserved names. ive been beaten, abused, ripped apart. lied to, cheated on. misheard, misjudged. ive got a guy thats willing to give the world for just one date with me and another guy whose willing to ( Read more... )

waking up next to you this morning felt so good. seeing those eyes right as you opened them was...breath taking. we sat in his car for 2 hours before that and just talked and laughed.

i love this.

ill write more later. work now.

I'm done thinking that everyone's always going to be there for me. That I'm always going to have somebody to fall back on. I'm not. I know I'm not. I hate it but it's reality. I got ditched so many times last night. I'm done depending ( Read more... )

I want to go to Paris, Italy, Australia, New York, Maine and India ( Read more... )

I got home from school today and went into my bathroom. I was looking in the mirror and I heard the doorbell ring. "who the hell?" i wondered. As I looked through the windows next to the front door, I saw a perfect man, standing, smoking a cigarette, smiling. He came in and stayed for an hour or so, till I had to run off to work. Just as I thought ( Read more... )

the two of you are so beautiful. im so happy to be able to call you my best friends.

when my dad left there was a hole inside of me so big...it may never heal. but he took that hole and filled it as much possible with love and compassion. now that thats gone...what else do i have? i love him too much. it scares him. i know it. it even scares me. maybe i just care. maybe i don't want this to die. but i know tomorrow i could be gone ( Read more... )

from stephanies journal (hers is freinds only so i edited out anything i thought she might not want everyone to see ( Read more... )

I had to get something down before the nights end ( Read more... )