so some things in my life are looking like they are going to be changing , getting back together with an ex . we are going to work this out new track marks and all .so we have been talking about what we both want , so it is looking like we are going to move and move in together .. im afraid it wont work out , but more afraid it might have and i ( Read more... )

so we were hanging out last night playing wii bowling and beer pong ... the guys were like smash can we ask you something ? i was like go ahead . these silly boys wanted to know how long it takes me to get ready when we all go out i was like 10 maybe 15 minutes . they wouldnt believe my man " there is no way she looks like that all the time and ( Read more... )

See You In Hell ( Read more... )

APOLLO BEACH - The phone rang just after midnight June 6 and woke Gayle Fisler ( Read more... )

havent been getting much sleep too much stuff to do been trying to juggle working like 60 some hours at the job a week and hanging out with 2 guys , not as easy as it was a few years ago . need to get off my ass and decorate the tree , he is comming over so i also need to put on makeup , just smoked a bowl so i really dont feel like doing shit . ( Read more... )

friday i had the best nights sleep in forever , he held me all night long held my hand . my face was a little raw from the stubble on his face . but when i got up the next morning i was warm and i didnt feel so alone anymore . this whole trying not to get attached thing doesnt seem like it is going to work out to well , he makes me feel alive for ( Read more... )

so my favorite month of the year is now over , im not taking down the decor . it will be halloween everyday and your gonna like it ( Read more... )

everything has been getting better with time , no more cutting no more sitting next to his grave drinking beer and talking to him , no more anger . the other day i was thinking of the quote it's better to have loved and lost than never to love at all . you love people in so many ways everyone you come across you love in a sense i decided i am a ( Read more... )

so its like almost noon and i have been drinking for almost 2 hours im trying to find a new car . my car blew up ( well the engine blew up ). its kind of symbolic in a sense . it was going to either be me or the car , if it wouldnt have blown i wouldnt probally be here anymore .... going to the bar at 2pm when you get off work and trying to drink ( Read more... )

he is gone , i know i need to let go . i go to work everyday i wait for him to open the door and smile at me . it never happens . it's never going to happen again . he was not like anyone eles i have ever been with , when i would get all pissed off all he had to do was smile at me .he made it all better he accepted me , he made me feel perfect . ( Read more... )