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discombobulation
sometimes i wish i had never taken a chance at love it just hurts so damn much. things were easier when i was just "settling" no i was not completely happy but i was not heartbroken and hurting all the time. i dont know why we have to have this. i find myself crying more and more and fighting myself more and more on what i can and cannot take ( Read more... ) -
what happened
i knew that it wasnt perfect and it all still seems surreal. i feel so empty and hollow inside. who would ever have thought that i would have my heart which i reluctantly gave up for the first time in my life would be ripped in pieces and thrown to the wayside. i still am turning in circles because i still love her so much and i want to share the ( Read more... ) -
so alone
been together so long. feels like i have been alone longer. it seems like you look right past me. i am there yet its not what it used to be. i go from sad to happy to worse than ever before. you say that we can make it work i really dont know if you want to amymore. you hit the bottle before you even think to let your lips meet mine. been weeks ( Read more... ) -
the lonely things that no one ever knows
alone i cry. i have lost my motivation for a lot of things and i do not know why. how come things that i once enjoyed i am held back from? how come i can't be myself without looking over my shoulder? how come everythig i do has a prognosis? how come how come how come??????? what happened to the days when no one cared and everything was all fun and ( Read more... ) -
what i wish i didnt know
does my friend have a drug problem ( Read more... ) -
what a long time
this is where i can post my thinghts and not have any worries about what will happen because i dont know why but noone ever comes here anymore but i really like it. so what if its not personalized and shit i still like it more. anyways i hope that mt record will be clear in the near future then who knows what. my life is still drama drama drama but ( Read more... ) -
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i know that noone reads this anymore because they all went to myspace. i like this better i can release my thoughts and not have them posted for everyone to see. i like haveing an unknown life and with myspace theres too much that doesnt remain a mystery. just think have you ever just sat there and wandered in your own thoughts and existance? its ( Read more... ) -
if only
if only you knew then alot would be different. if only it wasnt double standard then you would see what was really wrong with the situation. im true to myself and am not influenced by anyone else. but why the sudden change of whats not wrong to begin with why not change whats really wrong with the whole situation. i know you wouldnt think the same ( Read more... ) -
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so many thoughts come to mind and it just brings me down more. 3 things ( Read more... )