As always in times of sadness, watching Lord of the Rings brings me some solace. I am a living breathing Gollum...
Gollum: Master betrayed us!

So much for "It's my decision in the end, I am never getting an arranged marriage" and "Of course I am not going to do it, I love you more than anything and cannot live without you!"

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I thought I could go one day without crying,
but the tears, they never end... they can never mend
my broken heart,
boundless tears through an infinite sadness

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"He really doesn't love you as much as he said and although he knows he hurt you he's not going to change his mind b/c of his parents."

I am on lunch break from school, and I feel so sick. The children were crazy today. I met the mayor of Hempstead, his grandaughter was in the class I am observing and the parents came for the "Thanksgiving Feast" which had no turkey b/c the principal is vegan, lol, funny. I could have stayed for the Thanksgiving feast, but I still feel like ( Read more... )

I definitely loved him very much and I truly wanted to spend my life with him but I believe that what happened was a pretty big test and he revealed himself for the pussy that he is.

I hate myself for hoping because I think I know that he is not strong enough and that he is never coming back. I am just going to have to let go. Both ( Read more... )

Stupid indians, I wish we could pack them up and send them back to their own country! After nearly 3 hours of talking with my (ex)boyfriend, we have still not cometo a solution and it is three o clock on the morning. I couldnt eat, sleep, or do much of anything today because I am so upset. Although he promised me he would never get an arranged ( Read more... )

This morning I ventured into the wasteland (aka Queens) to do my REQUIRED high ( Read more... )

I pick bad times to go online. I thought that since I had not been on IM in a while I was surely missing out on great convos with my friends, but I guess not. Tonight is the night I usually go visit Sukhvir, but since he is not here I am going to watch Smallville live instead of on tape the next day :-) Today I was very productive, I bought a box ( Read more... )

Given the immense sadness that the past week has brought me, I did not ( Read more... )