All I want is to make someone happy, to make people happy, but it’s so hard when everyone around me is screwing over someone that cares about them. It’s so hard to watch someone’s feelings get hurt and know that they may never trust again. It hurts to always be the witness of someone betraying the person they say they care about. Whether it’s a 19 ( Read more... )

i love reading old entries and laughing about how stupid i was. don't get me wrong i'm still very stupid, but it's funny to remember exactly how stupid i was at an exact point in my life ( Read more... )

i say dude and man ( Read more... )

i really wish some of my friends would realize how sensitive i am. and that even the most insignificant thing can and will hurt me. maybe i deserve to be treated like shit? but then again maybe i don't. i don't know what it takes to keep friends these days, but i'm guessing it's a lot since things always get fucked up for me. what am i EVEN TALKING ( Read more... )

sometimes.. ok a lot of the time i pretend i'm happy just so people aren't worried about me because i don't want them to be. esp. people like my mom. i have to constantly have a smile on my face in front of her or she'll ask me what's wrong. thats fine but i can't open up to tell her sometimes ( Read more... )

is it okay to finally say i'm happy? hmm not quite yet because i tend to get ahead of myself. i always think i'm finally happy then something comes along and throws that idea out the window. but then again that's life and it's always going to happen. especially to people like me who let a lot of the problems just walk right into my life and do ( Read more... )

i lied. i like this year.

i don't like this year so far.

i wish i could just take the whole month of march off from work, but i doubt i'll be able to do that. i finally have things to do and places to be, but it's inconvenient that it all has to happen in the same month. i've been working at phil's for a year now. longest time i ever kept a job. i can't stay there too much longer though, because i need ( Read more... )

i'll always think there's someone better. for me and for them. i'm never satisfied.