I feel like I am on autopilot again. Every compromise or suggestion, I set out there, just isnt good enough. It sad when I need therapy, to get out. I realizes how toxic this is. I see the crack on the mask, but I try to salvage it. Maybe therapy can help with my mindset.

Hello again, Lj ( Read more... )

New Year SAme shit.  I vow to be better this year.  I want to learn to be a better person, to learn new things, and experience life without regret.  Im really getting tired of being the "bad guy".  But what can I say, he bitter that I am happy for once. Oh well. Life sux. Its not fair. I learn, Now I live.  So let see where this journey take us ( Read more... )

I need ideas for a alcohol base dessert. I've already made a German Tequila cake, Young Double Stout Chocolate brownie, and a Bourbon carmel apple cake.  I want to make something different with other liquor but cant seem to come up with any go combination of desserts liquor.  The one recipe I really want is something to go with Absinthe.  And the ( Read more... )

OMG BABY... I forgot about your birthday.  I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO SORRY!!!!!!!!.  Happy Late Drunk Day, Lisa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you.  Sorry I will miss you when you come down to Texas.

Sometimes I wonder why I have this account still.  I hardly ever write in it and barely have time to glance at my friend page.  I have come to a conclusion...my life is just plain lacking.  I lack the desire to better myself.  Lack the   passion for my marriage...granted that has been gone since I said I Do.  All the friends I have I can count on ( Read more... )

To start off, I wish everyone a decent New Years.  Be safe, love the ones you're with, and remember the ones that has gone.  I decide not to have a resolution this year, granted, I don't keep them anyways.  This year has been one with great surprises, more regret, and alot of growth.  And I really don't want to change a thing.  Ok, maybe the ( Read more... )

Maybe in my next life, I wont be such a fuck up.  Til then, I can only try to improve myself.

Goddammit.  For the record,  Don'T... and I mean Don't go to work for Union Pacific Railroad.  They will put you in a good paying job and fucking yank it from you.  David has put out applications and NOONE is calling him back....Reason. THe fucking UP.  Apparently, no job will hire you if you work for the railroad.  And technically he still has a ( Read more... )

CHANGE HERE WE COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Obama  WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!