and i miss you in my fingers an valleys in between
its odd how feelings linger for something yet unseen 
its ages between my heart and my mouth
my veins throb with that which i cant spit out
now i dont need much
just preasants in mind
and the assurance, your pain matches mine so stay....
please dont go away from here.......

well i havent written in this in forever but i dont think anyone is going to read this cause yeah..i just dont think anyones going to. So its the 22nd today..which means only 9 days until my birthday and...21 days until i leave. And nothing has yet changed. I dont know what im going to do about everything. I trying to settle everything before i ( Read more... )

so okay...this is my weekend so far. yesterday i went to nicoles house a little while after i got home from school. I had to come home and pack up all my stuff to spend the night. THe we hung out at her place for a while until all of us ( the 2 of us and her moms) then we went out to dinner to...black angus. Which let me add was very good. then ( Read more... )

WEll..This is all im gunna post today. Okay, so now it seems as though im just doing such terrible things to you right? im just out here to hurt you And make your life miserable. Well guess what, Thats not even it at all. Every day its a different thing that your mad at me about, and im tired of feeling bad for things that i dont even do. Now you ( Read more... )

well this may sound wierd but fo the last week ive had a b/f. yup, its crazy.last thursday evan came up to me at luch and asked me out. i couldnt believe it. Ive liked him for a long time, i just never thought we would be going out. for once in a while a guys not trying to go hella fast in a relationship, and i really like that. i really do like ( Read more... )

Although that talk hurt so much last night. i guess that it was needed. apperantly im holding on to a part of my past that will never be again, so i guess it was good to find that out and not go on holding on for something that will never be again. I know that you say that its time for me to move on, but i still hurt so much. and still love you so ( Read more... )

well ( Read more... )

veronica comes home today from germany!! its already been 10 days!!! omg i miss her so much!!!! woohoo!!! (WILL POST MORE ABOUT eXtreme Thing LATER)...

i just dont know what to do anymore, you know? i dont know what to say. i just dont have anybody to turn to anymore, at least nobody that cares. i had tried so hard to become unreachable to everybody, and to just be alone, just because i didnt think that i was worth the strife ...but god..im just regreting the many things that i have done in the ( Read more... )

hm.. today was a pretty fucked up day over all. today..everything just felt so wierd. I just felt so out of place. shavan didnt come. their was troubles with everything apperantly.god damn..i need her so much right now. but if im lucky, we might be getting her tomorrow. I feel so alone right now. it really does suck. my sister left this morning for ( Read more... )