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Aug 21, 2005 23:24

Live is so confusing sometimes. Just when things seem like they are starting to make sense again, here comes another curve ball and shit is all out of whack. Things are starting to fially go in the right direction. I like my new job. I'm not making the best money as of yet, but I'm trying to keep an open mind. The family life is fine I guess. The ( Read more... )

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ignrncisbliss August 22 2005, 12:37:46 UTC

i've forced myself to not think about you. to not let myself call you. trust me i've wanted to. but i've made myself stop. i miss you too. and i know that i love you. but after not hearing from you for 4 days, and then reading this. it kills me. i miss you. i want to see you. i want to be able to talk to you. but i figured i would back off and give you some space. i don't know what to do here. i don't want to step over any boundaries, so i'll let you make the next move.

i love you and i miss you too.

by the way... ignrncisbliss August 22 2005, 14:27:36 UTC

as far as this other person you have found that is a shining star in your life now, if you think that there is a future between you two you should go for it. i want you to be happy, even if it's not with me. but if we are to be friends, i only ask one thing of you. if you decide that there is a future with this other girl, don't talk about it if i'm around. it would be too hard for me to see you happier with someone else than you were with me. i don't want to sound selfish, but i just don't want to get hurt again right away. i'm sorry that i gave those miserable times. i'm sorry that i couldn't make you as happy as you should have been. but i do think the times we had together, at least the good ones, are worth remembering. don't forget me. i know i won't forget you. don't regret me. i know i don't regret you. i regret what i've done, yes. but i don't regret you. i wish i could have put everything into our relationship. the wrong time seems to haunt us with whatever we do. i'm sorry for hurting you. i hope that you can get everything ( ... )

Re: by the way... alac586 August 22 2005, 17:26:14 UTC

"One of the things that I have come to treasure about all of the time that we have spent together I feel like I found another person who is a shining star in my life. There are only a few people who have truely impacted my life, and there is no question that you are one of those people."

That is what I about the shining star in my life. Allie, I am talking about you here. There is no other girl. You are the shining star.