It's 6 am in the morning on a Saturday and i'm wide awake. Alas this greatly sucks, but that's ok ( Read more... )

Hmm what to say. Not a whole lot actually. I've cleared my head since the other night. I'm on my up swing of things right now. I have the day off today for Alaska Day, we don't get Columbus Day, we're too good for that. Anywho. I had an interview yesterday for Clarus Technologies. It would be a receptionist position to start with, but they ( Read more... )

I have a dilemma. I need closure from someone, but I can't talk to this person because of things that happened. It's frustrating because I don't miss him in a I wish I was dating him way, but more of a I miss the talks we had when we were friends. I just wish that I could talk to him again and get that final closure that I need to close that ( Read more... )

So after my woah is me post the other day I figured I would post a happier one about Florida. I'm now an auntie!!!!! He's so cute too. He was born 7.5 lbs, 19.5 inches, and a head full of hair, and really big feet. I know I shouldn't all ready talk bad about my nephew but maybe the big feet are a good sign that he's going to be tall, maybe even ( Read more... )

It's funny how far some people go and change. I mean in just the span of a year. Well I guess it has been about two now hasn't it. I didn't realize that much had changed. Everyone has changed, and forgotten, yet i'm stuck in the same place I tried to get away from. I need to change all this, and soon. I'm in a self destruct pattern trying to ( Read more... )

Every time I think I finally have part of my life figured out he goes and changes things on me. We're suppose to be the ones buying the house and then we rent out the rooms. Not him, because then he gets to make the rules, and I don't want to live in those conditions. I want to be able to make the rules, I don't want to be around that stuff, and ( Read more... )

I don't know how i'm feeling right now. I wish I knew how to put it in words. I know i'll be fine in the morning, but it almost makes everything seem not real. Not real is how a lot of things are beginning to feel, like i'm in the wrong place at the wrong time again. I hate this feeling, because I have yet to figure out how to make it go away ( Read more... )

It's been a while. I just haven't known what to say. Things are going good. All the puzzle pieces are fitting together. Tonight is the first night I haven't been able to fall asleep in a while. There's just so much on my mind. So many things i'm trying to figure out in my head ( Read more... )

I haven't written in a while because I haven't really known what to say. I guess just deep down i've been trying to figure stuff out, and i'm not getting very far with it. However if I don't just dive right in, it will go locked back up for who knows how long ( Read more... )

Who would have ever thought i'd make it to the one year mark. It seems like just yesterday I was excited if I made it past a month with a guy. Then the mark grew to that elusive 6 month mark, then suddenly i'm with Ben for a year. Now I guess the next mark is getting engaged??? Makes me happy just thinking about it. Ahh how wonderful life can ( Read more... )