So in an attempt to ward off negative thoughts I am writing down all the cool things that have happened so far this holiday ( Read more... )

I am so stressed out, this is supposed to be my holiday but I am just extraordinarily tense all the time; constantly feeling like I am saying the wrong thing etc. I just can't help but want loads of stupid things that I know are bad for me. Maybe I should just have more faith in the Gods of fate and take a 'what will be will be' attitude to life ( Read more... )

I was thinking today about how I am intimidating, and I know I am. I dunno why exactly except that I'm kinda upfront and in your face. It's all a giant front of course but what's new. I love that so many people feel I am shy and so many people feel I am bold. The truth is despite their bi-polar nature I am both, that's probably why I'm ( Read more... )

1. My ex is: a pretty fab person and very important to me ( Read more... )

I say that the one quality I really despise in people is gutlessness but I am kind of gutless myself, there are some people I will not confront but I know exactly why, they are the people with the power to hurt me the most, I will confront everyday situations with alarming regularity but with some people I can't say a damn thing and those things ( Read more... )

I can't fucking beleive I have sinusitus again, temp of 101, constant headache and diziness and spreading to ears and throat, plus a doctor's diagnosis would beg to differ though. I guess I shuld be happy that it at least isn't a week later or I wouldn't of been able to travel, as it is it should be pretty much over by then but still this sucks. ( Read more... )

Ok so my holiday is fast approaching and with my typical lack of orgainization I have only planned like 2 actual events, woo hoo. The thing is I know that given half a chance I will just hang out at **MICHAEL'S** and watch movies and not do anything, my only dated plans are strokes gig on 15th and dinner with Jen on 6th, other than that I have ( Read more... )

Do you ever have one of those days when you have one thought, one song and one memory in your head, you get briefly distracted from them but then you get back but, and here is the kicker, the thought, the song and the memory are totally unconnected ( Read more... )

God I need to talk to someone I don't know who I find novel and interesting. This hasn't happened in ages and I think that may actually be what I need. This can of course only be achieved by talking to a new person as I seem to be cursed/blessed with ADD of the soul, I am so spastic at the moment. All I actually want is to be fucked up, but I ( Read more... )

1. Mirrors ( Read more... )