god i miss him so much lately. i don't know why. i havent missed him like this since...i don't even know when. everything is making me think of him and everything is making me miss hm more.

i hate being a girl.

i hate my mom.

i'm gonna marry him someday :/

wish they understood.

i miss laura. i miss jessica.

i was so fucking close to the end. ( Read more... )

i went to go see 13 going on 30 last night. i cried through the whole movie and the whole drive home and the whole period of trying to seleep. odd thing is my parents or borhter didn't even notice.

i'm getting depressed again. i dunno why or what to do about it.

i think my brother just fonud out that i have a journal -_- which means i might have to change it. fuck. asshole, i hate him.

-- r

i talked to amanda and jessica tonight on the phone and i heard a few things taht make me very unhappy.

jessica told me that my mom yelled at some of the girls and blamed what i did on them. i hate my mom so much it's indescribable. she always blames things on people that aren't to blame. why can't she blame me? it's my fuckign fault. and even then ( Read more... )

it keeps me busy.

hi alex.

look at all the posts! :D

asdfasdf

-- r

i'm such a retard. i'm so hyper today it's not even funny, omg.

i've been looking up random things on google today and i found my future tattoo:


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Laughter is fake. Happiness is a lie, love is painful. He could smell the scent of ash on the wind. warm, choking. he thought of her, and how the burning fires on the hills reminded him of the burning love he once felt for her. at first he shut it out, then he embraced it. why bother? it would come back later anyways ( Read more... )

we've only been in san diego for a week and we've already seen 6 snakes. we've caught 4 of them and they're awesome. among them have been:

2 gopher snakes
3 cali king snakes
1 red racer

it's been an interesting experience.

i love snakes.

-- r

(for some reason my previous post didn't make it on my journal...can't understand why.)

i miss you.

i have no idea where that came from...

yesterday we went into town to do some shopping and i heard his song three different times...it was really odd because it's not even that famous of a song :/ "in your heart, in your mind, i'll stay with you, for all of time!"

*sigh*

well the girls in the dorm are gathering up some of my leftover stuff to give ( Read more... )

i noticed today on this package of oreos that they're called 'america's favorite cookie'. how do they know that? did they take votes? "VOTE FOR YOUR FAVORITE COOKIE, AMERICA ( Read more... )