Reports of my death have been greatly exadgerated;
i simply sit in suspended animation.
Suspended in the same animations day in and day out.
Awaiting that day, three weeks away.
When i will have a reason once again to awake.

sometimes, if i try really really hard, i can pretend that im not upset with the way things are. i can fool myself, and everyone else that with every waking moment, and every one spent in slumber, that i am not screaming out for something differet. something more tangable and meaningfull. in just two more months i will have what it is i want ( Read more... )

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http://www.indieclick.com/

kawah?
disney? indie? say it aint so!

( portland behind the cut )

i just feel akward now. i didnt realize how right it felt to be in portland with ivory. that is until i got back here and layed down in my room. it just feels foriegn now..sigh. even this feels akward and misplaced. i cant wait to get back to portland, and back to the woman i love.

oooooooooooh man
jason lee as the villan and sam jackson as the cool sidekick
i have got to see that movie
is it playing in portland maybe?
*goes to check*

things that are delicious: (as follows)

-naps
-going to portland

and as i have just woken up from my nap, there is only one thing left to do.

i didnt realize until right now what i had been doing wrong. i didnt realize until right now that what i thought i was doing right could go so wrong. i can see now the mistakes i have made these past months, and the way i have let myself change; heres to tracing my own footsteps back into the fading sand.

oh man oh man..today has been so much crazy. between messes, joshes, broken machines, burnt hands, lots of bekka and familia, huge lines, deliveries, lories, pictures, and now new jeans..
i just dont know what to do now..knit perhaps? any ideas?