i can feel myself falling. deeper and deeper into a depression, one that i can not yet see the light at the end of. i know when it will be better, but im worried that it wont be. i know my worry is the only thing that could jeopardize the situation, but i cant help but worry sometimes. when will this all end?

they all come in at once, as if the whole city of wasilla woke up at once. a flury of one's five's and ten's fly into the register. looking up and out the window, i see it falling; with the same ferocity as our customers assaulting the door, it assaults the ground. falling slowly from the sky, spotting for a landing. comming in hard, before ( Read more... )

so, all of those theories last night, all of them came true. i know how things work far too well sometimes. so now we are down two more, with tim quitting yesterday, and rebekkah today. and the water pumps for allllll of the small coffee shops froze last night, so we got a lot of their over flow, making a days worth of sales in four hours. ( Read more... )

leaving your house was hard tonight. it felt like you should be there with me, like any minute you would come running down the stairs and into my arms to pull me off into the night, where we belong. leaving without you really threw me back to a year ago, when we first met. the same cd was even playing as i sped back down that road away from you. ( Read more... )

not much to say today. i go to work. i make the monies. i miss the ivory.
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wooo! the holes in my ears are almost all healed up..maybe in a few more weeks i can stretch them even?

my name is alex. i am twenty years old, and i can not think of anything i love more than art. ever since i have been able to pick up a marking tool i have been creating lines. for me, art has always been a means to express myself when my voice has failed me. so when i was little, and my voice was weak, i would use a line to create my imagination ( Read more... )

i feel so dizzy...my brain is realing from an imaginary impact. i dont know what i need, but i need it now. at least i dont have to drive into anchorage, that might have pushed me over the edge..

i wish you were here ivory..you make everything better.

( i am a fucking artist! )

im going to try and trim back my lj a bit, i feel like there are probably a lot of people on here that probably really dont care one way or another what i have to say. and thats completely cool by me, i know im not that interisting. and there are a few people i will add reguardless of their interist, simply because i want to (in some small way) ( Read more... )