I had a dream we threw a big party at my dads house. The lighting fixture in michael's room broke twice. You came with the second wave of people. I saw Jermaine and a friend from high school who's mom killed herself walking together. When you walked in I was knee deep in glass; picking most of it out of the carpet. We stared for what seemed awhile ( Read more... )

There are no wizards ( Read more... )

I just had a dream that I went to a show with Adam and Taylor and that at the show, I was having a great time, I had a coat hanger still attached to my clothing, so I mingled and met people and as I moved on I would attach my back to a wire and zip myself around by shifting my weight. One band played outside , then the other band played inside, ( Read more... )

And precious Cora
Has no mother
But my wing which 
Takes her under

Daffodil castles 
We grow wild house flowers
I tie daisies to her curls
We sing songs to the angels
We play games in the dirt

And Cora never knows
Exactly who
her daddy loved
A girl as pure as pearls
With a heart bigger than hers

I've lost 10,000 fingers ( Read more... )

I really messed this one up. You would think after the six months of meditation I would learn to stay calm and keep my head. She will forever assume that at some point during our relationship I talked or thought about another girl. She will forever assume that I do drugs. She will forever assume that I only love her when she leaves and that we are ( Read more... )

Better not to post when alcohol is around. I literally thought about kissing her 4,000 times last night, but the only reason she talked to me at all was alcohol. I get nervous , three years and still butterflies and jumbled words. But though I probably won't be allowed to talk to her for months again, at least I got to see her, and she did smile . ( Read more... )

"The idiot ( Read more... )

We, Michael and I put up a fence in Bamas yard today. She got this dog she named puddin head, after the mark twain short story if I had to guess, and this thing was a rescue and was going to be put to sleep. It is absolutely terrified of people. I'm beginning to feel that way also. I've sort of become a hermit. I realize that if I'm not playing ( Read more... )

I had another dream about Jessica just now. It's funny how true to life dreams can be. I actually woke up and said thank god this wasn't real. Not that real life is any different. Apparently I was driving my car but I had her iPod and Andrew was telling her that they had to cover a song where she could be more sexual and she didn't like it . But ( Read more... )