so yesterday at chelseas grad party i made out w/ JAKE...and thjen i told freddy last nigt on the phone and i expected him to be freak out but he was pretty calm...altho i think i hurt his feelings...i feel like shit right now...im more depressed then ever...like i let jake kiss me and now im back to being vulunerable again..and he hasnt even tried ( Read more... )

Alot has changed since the last time i wrote...for starters im dating freddy..for two weeks now..i was soo happy about it and our song is lost in this moment w/ you by big and rich...he is a really sweet kid..not the greatest looking..we havent really been able to hang out that much tho and i have this stupid baby for human development..alana and ( Read more... )

so after that wonderful night w/ adam he sucks...he barely talked to me all last week. and this week we are on vacation. and im going to have to see him at the pasta supper most likely. and im nervous. like i wonder if i did anything wrong. and i hate that like he led me on and i fell for it. i wonder if he even likes me.or if he is even over ( Read more... )

i had the best night last night..i went to adams house w/ like everyone...i had very low expectations at first..and omg...we actually cuddled on teh couch, like his arm around him laying on the couch ...we did the whole cute poke thing and like hugged he actually put his arm around me from the back by the end of the night...and the funny thing is ( Read more... )

well actually alot has changed since my last entry surprisingly...adam and rebeecca lee broke up so did jake and his gf...i guess she sent him a text message saying is it over and he said yes or something ihave no freaking clue...and then there was the leadership conference...i met my new friend tom from wethersfield..i also grinded w/ henry and ( Read more... )

so today i decided im over that whole situation...i was really nice to rebecca lee and now we have a song change the world by eric clapton cause the chorus sang it and then i sang it to her hahaha....idk i cant hate her i just cant...cause i kno i would have doen the same thing in her situation..plus wat does hating her get me nothing...i just ( Read more... )

well jake is dating a freshman girl named abby and adam and rebecca lee are officially datting. brendan hates adam and rebecca lee dating cause she talked shit abou tadam in spanish class..i guess that abby girl loves jake and i think rebecca lee is really falling for adam.i guess i mover it. or at leaslt working on being over it. ihave no choice. ( Read more... )

long time no write...well actually not much has changed just time has passed. rebecca lee likes adam. and tomorrow at henrys surprise party apparently people are going to try to set them up. and i cant be angry b/c she never knew i liked him. so i know tomorrow is going to suck alot b/c i have to deal w/ the stress of jake and the stress of them ( Read more... )

its funny i just read my life journal entry from august and realized i havent writen in a long ass time..so i liked adam...and idk it was going good for awhile besides the fact that i was worrying alil bit about him liking alana...find out he wont like me b/c he doesnt want to backstab jake...then last night bryan told me that rebecca lee had only ( Read more... )

for some reason im depressed i feel like life sucks balls and im just going through the motions..it doesnt help that my mom is wicked depressed too. jake called me today after work and wanted to see if i wanted to go to the movies w/ him henry and ali so i did. we saw the world trade center movie. it was intense. it was soo pointless going w/ him . ( Read more... )