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i'm pathetic
I am so fucking pathetic. I had a goddamn panic attack yesterday, because I was trying to call the fucking doctor. I hate fucking doctors. The only reason I'm even going is because my landlords were threatening to evict me if I didn't. So now I have an apppointment for the 14th to find out whether or not I'm preggers, but I'm severly freaking out ( Read more... ) -
newness... I'm odd
Fuck me
Like you hate me
That’s what I need tonight
Pin me down
Ride me hard
Make me yell
And make me cry
Fuck me
Like you hate me
Anything goes
No safeword
And no repose
Screaming
Yelling
Begging
Pleading
Ignore it all
Torture me
Until I fall…
Fuck me
Like you hate me
That’s all I need tonight
No sweet words
No gentle touch
I need mean
And I need hard
Make it rough
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100 truths
☼ ·.·˙˙˙·..· ♡ WHAT WAS YOUR ♡ ·.·˙˙˙·..· ☼
1. Last beverage: budweiser
2. Last phone call: Jen
3. Last text message: Jen
4. Last song you listened to: Ingrid Michaelson- Soilder
5. Last time you cried: Today
☼ ·.·˙˙˙·..· ♡ HAVE YOU EVER ♡ ·.·˙˙˙·..· ☼
6. Dated someone twice: yep (big mistake)
7. Been cheated on: Not that I know of.
8. Kissed someone & ( Read more... ) -
Something new
So this is my something new. Kind of sums up exactly what I need right now, but I just can't find that one person that can handle me. I don't think I ever will........
Love me tonight
Forget me tomorrow
Torture me sweetly
Until I holler
Make me scream
Make me cry
Make me forget
My name tonight
Build me up
Then tear me down
Beat me
Whip me
Tie me down
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FOUND IT!
I finally found my Tony quote after fighting with search engines for the last hour.. WOOHOOO!!!!! Time to throw a party!!! In my pants! hehe I might be just a tab bit sleep deprived and listening to the ridiculousness of the lovely Mitch Hedburg! (Why are all cool people dead???) Anyway after that bit of randomness here is the quote before I lose ( Read more... ) -
uummm
so I really need to get off the computer and finish my hair abby pigtails) so I can go to work but I keep getting distracted! lol But the only reason I started this post in the first place was to ask a favor if anyone manages to read it... I'm trying to remeber something Tony said but I don't think I'm getting the quote quite right. What I got is ( Read more... ) -
truth.....
When was the last time someone told me they loved me and I actually believed them? When was the last time I told aomeone I loved them and believed myself? I can't remember. And that is utterly depressing..... Especially considering the fact that I just talked to me mum a few hours ago and she always tells me she loves me before we hang up. But ( Read more... ) -
ugggg
I can't quit crying and being all weepy and shit and it's really starting to piss me off. I don't cry. So the fact that I can't stop is really starting to get to me. It's fucking freaky. And it's shit that's random as hell that is making me cry. Like a happy ending on a story... WTF?!?!?! I am not the person that cries at happy endings. I would ( Read more... ) -
fuck!
Rip me
tear me
pin me
shred me
make me scream
make me bleed
make me cry
for the life that I've wasted
so that' how i'm feeling right now. i wrote that years ago but it stills works. but the fuckied up situationn i have put myself in with my ex is really getting to me. i have recently realized that i'm becoming obsessed with bdsm and the whol lifestyle. i' ( Read more... ) -
mistakes
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!! I was just writing my post and fucking lj deleted it! and i was almost done FUCKK!!!! i am so godamned pissed right now! and it's probably my own fucking fault cause i think i hit a button but it doesn't make me feel any better!!! GODDAMMIT!!!!! and thst was a hole lot of shit i don't want to go thru again! grrrrr..... i'm ( Read more... )