The thing with Taylor ended because I quit taking his calls. He was a sweetheart but much too young for me. I began traveling to see Brian in Dallas. I thought he was the one... He wasn't the one. He asked me to be his girlfriend via Facebook on July 17th. I was done with him by the end of the week. He never called and ignored my texts all the time ( Read more... )

The night after that sappy Brian post I went to Rick's house, he was having some friends over. I finally met Taylor, a boy I'd been chatting with since Steve and I broke up. Taylor has stayed the night every night since Friday night. I like it. He's crazy about me and it feels good. I know that I'm not going to marry him or spend the rest of my ( Read more... )

Saw Elton tonight with my uncle. While I was watching the show I lost it again. Not in a bad way this time. I came to the realization that the sheer fact that I feel the way I do about Brian means so much. I'm not broken. Steve didn't ruin my spirit. I'm not jaded. This whole time I was worried I'd never see Brian again. And if I don't that's ok ( Read more... )

He's gone. Gone gone gone. I'm ok with it. Really I am.

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So he's packing now. I went to say hello to my valentine last night and left within 5 minutes. Thank god for waterproof mascara. I thought I bought it by mistake. Everything happens for a reason doesn't it? He's trying to make me mad before he goes because he knows that's the only way I'll be able to deal with it... Because that's what I told him ( Read more... )

I asked him what am I supposed to do now that he's moving to Dallas. He told me to stay single and get to know what I like and I don't like. He'a got a good point. I really should be alone and I want to be alone... I wonder if he'll still be what I want when I figure myself out. If he is I'll be on the first thing smoking after my graduation in a ( Read more... )

Tomorrow I have my last 2 finals. They're both 40% of each class... Part of me wants to bomb them while part of me wants to do my best. I've been studying for the past few weeks but I keep focusing on my case study due Monday. 18 month old near drowning. The child is real to me. Jessica said that she's only saved one of her drowning patients and ( Read more... )

The divorce was final on October 20, 2011. I found the strength within myself to move past Steve and the life we made only to get stuck on my idea of perfect. Mr. Perfect is upstairs right now sleeping soundly. He's moving to Dallas in two weeks to take the job of a lifetime. I'm crying. I can't stop. The worst part about losing someone like this ( Read more... )

Signed divorce papers today. I feel the sense of regret and relief all in one breath. How is that even possible?
He told me he loved me just before I signed them and we went shopping together for hours after... In my world this is normal, it's fine. It's fine because I don't really care about norms nor do I follow them. My court house wedding with ( Read more... )

Hello world! I'm back!
I just read a handful of mr previous posts. Geez did I complain! It's amazing how fast things, and people change. I am eternally optimistic these days!


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