Short Term Objectives:

1. Hold off on the dating thing, because I know I'll lose myself instead of finding myself.
2. Figure out how to stop the seizures.
3. Go back to writing.
4. Work with my debt company, so I can breathe easier.
5. Meet up with old friends. There are so many people I need to see again.
6.) Go to a poetry slam and slam my heart out.
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A merchant called in today.
He called me stupid.
He didn't yell or scream.
He was calm and collected.
Mean and methodical.

And now, I can't sleep.
Because in my head, all I can hear is this man telling me things I've been telling myself.

I've known a wind so cold and seen the darkest days
But now the winds I feel, they're only winds of change...

Coming out of the dark, I know the love that saved me. Thank you, babes.

Dark Road ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do.

So I'm home after after my long adventure. I'm not quite sure which way is up or down and it feels like every moment of everyday I just want to hug someone...reach out and pull someone so close that I can escape into them. I could cry for days and it still wouldn't be enough ( Read more... )

I'm home from a 2-day hospital adventure ( Read more... )

My grandfather is getting sicker.
It's his fifth heart attack and his heart is so weak that he's no longer a candidate for surgery.
So he goes home tomorrow.
We wait...

I'm sick and I have to go on a 24-hour heart monitor on Thursday.
Then I have a meeting with a neurologist.
And then a appt for an MRI.
I'm scared.
I'm 23.
This shouldn't be happening to ( Read more... )

I've been lost for a while. And for a month or so, I could feel myself slipping away. That's really hard to go through, when you lose sight of yourself--who you're meant to be, what you're suppose to do. Then I realized I couldn't have lost sight if I had no idea who I was to begin with.

For so long, I've played by other people's rules, other people ( Read more... )

Meg and I are watching 102 Minutes that Changed the World on the History Channel, where they've pieced together footage in real time...

I was watching people jumping from the buildings, falling from the sky.

Seven years later...how the fuck could this have happened?