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Wow, a walk down memory super highway
I'm reading entries of mine from the past. I've gone through so much melodrama. I've used LJ on and off for over 10 years. This isn't all that popular of a blog spot, but it's what I call home for where I write notes to myself and the world in general. I believe that I keep trying to send future me a message. I feel like I was telling my ( Read more... ) -
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I love Madd. A lot. More than I knew I would. I love Madd in a way I did not know existed before. I thought that I knew my boundaries concerning how much of myself I reveal. The skeleton closet sometimes stacks the bones into a mighty high wall. Well, if I look back on the past, the pattern is to divulge more to Madd than to people in day to ( Read more... ) -
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I am trying to find a reason to keep going. I am having severe issues right now. My Facebook was hacked along with my phone, and 2 computers. The whole process was traumatising. Before the hackers set in, I found that I have huge issues to work out with Madd. It feels like he can change into someone that becomes a battering ram when he feels ( Read more... ) -
milestones
When I first joined Livejournal so many years ago, I would never have seen my life going the direction that it has. I should say I never would have expected to have the triumphs and tribulations that have cursed and blessed my adult life. I spend a lot of time writing in catharsis when something is wrong. I want to document what is going well ( Read more... ) -
Deep in Love
There once was a little girl named Nicole. She lived in grade school naive bliss. One year she was set to be a freshman at college. Immediately Nicole noticed that she was definitely the odd one out. Fellow class of 2000' graduates from Nicole's high school generally avoided and shunned her. Unfortunately, the people she was acquainted with ( Read more... ) -
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Commercial holidays have always made me feel uneasy. The biggest one, being Christmas, made me feel anxious because I am not even supposed to partake in it because I am not Christian. I have spent year after year hearing about people's plans and traditions and gifts. I get to celebrate Hannukah, but there is something missing. Perhaps what is ( Read more... ) -
De-complicate
Well, if I could be less complicated, I would be. Sometimes I cannot handle how complex I am. People, including myself, have noticed that I can being self-contradictory and obviously dealing with mental juxtaposition. I have always had the ability to 'be' more than one person at a time. I can identify with the many sides there are to people, ( Read more... ) -
getting things done
I have felt pretty helpless since coming back home. It has been less than 24 hours and I see how dire the situation is. My father keeps promising to fix the fuel pump issue with the car I drive, but he has broken that promise for well over three weeks now. I have not been able to drive much and now school has started and I have to go to court. ( Read more... ) -
MADD-ness
Long distance relationships are usually difficult from what I have read, heard, and experienced personally. My boyfriend lives 951 miles away from me. He made the long drive to Houston last summer. After a torturous half a year, he flew me to Iowa. Once the trip was confirmed, I bought some warm clothing and prepared for the trip. I was a bit ( Read more... ) -
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Does it help if you all are right ( Read more... )