I haven’t written an entry in too long. Most of the time, that is how journal entries start for me. Blogging has changed since I started my Live Journal in 2001. People use blogs to communicate. I use mine for catharsis. Why public? Well, I am not very shy and if the entry is worth making private, I will make it private. Because I am not a ( Read more... )

I've been making small steps forward each day. I was extremely upset that progress was not happening at the rate I want it to. I was also letting the separation of Jess and I get me so down, I didn't push myself to move forward either. Over the last few weeks, I have transferred to University of Houston, retrieved my car, applied for dozens of ( Read more... )

Sometimes the sobbings is loud and echoes my chest cavity ( Read more... )

So many things have changed in the past 3 months. I used to fear and avoid change. I discovered that things cannot improve if they do not change. People will always hope that their luck will improve but we cannot tell what is good or bad luck in the moment. I had bad luck and now have a court case to deal with but I no longer live with Dena ( Read more... )

For quite some time, I've been living with this person whose legal first name is Dena. I mention her pretty frequently because she has an impact on my life. She often is the very cause of my need to come here for catharsis. Today, the feelings aren't so urgent but they are still there ( Read more... )

I haven't checked or posted on livejournal in a while. I just signed on and saw my girlfriend posted the sweetest things. I'm pretty light headed and feeling warm all over. I did not realize that I could be this close to someone so quickly. I trust this person 100% and have a completely honest relationship. Recently we had some conversations ( Read more... )

So I made the mistake of allowing Billye, my ex, to talk to me online. One day she asked if she could bother me and I said "sure what's up?" I may have answered and that is my fault ( Read more... )

I'm supposed to be studying for an art history test later and I'm supposed to be in history class right now. I was supposed to see the counselor this morning ( Read more... )

On the 18th of August, Jessica and I had our one month anniversary. I was happy to take her out to celebrate. She's been by my side a lot lately and it's been absolutely wonderful. She makes me super happy and excited about life and the future. She also does extremely sweet things for me. Today when I came home from work, she had made my bed ( Read more... )

Atmosphere... the "band" sucks