i sat here for 2 hours staring at this screen, chain smoking until i filled my ashtray almost completely ( Read more... )

I've made an excruciatingly laborious attempt to be a better person, for my own well being ( Read more... )

i hate being really upset at work.

i wish such awful things wouldnt happen to me.

too bad. lie in the bed you fucking made for yourself, you piece of trash.

actually, i guess it's not that bad.

i have a REALLY stupid crush.

as of recent, i'll think back to when we first met. sitting in the sun at my house on the deck or trampoline and smoking cigarettes. sitting outside the diner, or yelling at kids at yale when i almost got fired from my job. going to point mugu and standing on the rocks or sitting on the beach in santa monica holding each other in the perfect ( Read more... )

this is my last morning in this house, i'll be at woodhaven in storrs for a few months,
then taking off to los angeles. lots of moving around.

i accept and i collect upon my body
the memories of your devotion

as of january 12th, I'll be packing up and heading off ( Read more... )