I remember when I hated Livejournal. I remember back in the good days when Lauren Bradley convinced me to finally get a livejournal. Of course I ended up loving the fucking thing. but now I'm different and I have no reason to bitch/complain and try and write down possible profound means of life, reasons, questions, so on. I used to feel ( Read more... )

My birthday was amazing. I couldn't have asked for better friends! yeah, people that I thought cared about me didn't remember my birthday. oh well. what's important is who does care, and it meant the world to me. thank you lauren s. for not just the gift but for all your effort in making sure everything was perfect.

so much fucking pressure. I can't deal with it.

life is new.
this year is new.
it's crazy how much everything has changed, but for once, change is not scary for me.
I'm sick of people being so narrow minded. You can't sell yourself short, or place yourself in a box. opportunity does happen. Don't watch it run away. as motivational speaker as that sounds. you know its true.

I'm sorry but your sympathy act does not work on me. We are all in the same boat here, just with different circumstances. we all hate high school, we all feel restless, we all feel alone. nothing is going to change. We are all playing the hurry up and wait game, like being stuck on a bus with people getting on and off, but you have to wait for your ( Read more... )

I'm very happy right now ( Read more... )

I'm feeling good.
I'm sick of being angry with people.
As long as I know who I am, then I will only progress, with or without some people.

I'm so tired of people questioning how I feel about them. If you are insecure about it or want to know, FUCKING ASK ME. Instead of either, ignoring me, or acting like a complete asshole. You know, just because I've grown into a better, different person does not mean that you can treat me like a disease. grow up  .

"If you were to fall to your death from a very great height; it would be a shame not to enjoy the view as you fell, or to appreciate the wind in your hair or the warmth of the sun on your face. To experience the raw voltage of being alive, requires that we learn to lick honey from the razor's edge"

It's crazy to think that a year ago I was living in New York and I has constantly upset.
what a fucking turn around it's been.