The past week I've been eating shit after shit after shit. I can feel my stomach expanding. I'm not sure what has gotten into me lately. Tomorrow I'm going to start my jogs twice a day again and eat my Turkey burgers that I bought. And no more startch again until my birthday. I want to lose 5 pounds between now and the 29th. I can do it. I just ( Read more... )

Well jasper st james has been gone for 5 days now. he is gone. i cried sooo hard yesterday. i miss my baby love so much. i wish he was here so bad. i was told yesterday to just give up and let go. its so easier said then done though. i may give up, but i am not going to ever let go. i will never let go, no matter what anyone says. i love you so ( Read more... )

So remember when I said last night, I felt like Elmer was acting weird and I felt like something was going on. Yeah what a bomb shell that was. This morning, he texted me and forwarded me a text from his ex. She basically said that she is moving back to Oklahoma in August because she can't stand that she's not his one and only. My heart sank when I ( Read more... )

So for some reason, july is going by pretty fucking slow. I keep thinking its two days ahead of what it actually is. I'm not sure why, all day yesterday I thought it was the 7th, and no.. that's today. Sigh ( Read more... )

Well, I found out today my mom has to go to jail for 30 days. I'm not sure why, as she wont tell me. But needless to say she's going sometime this week. I normally wouldn't be so selfish ... but I don't get to talk to my brother Josh because he's in jail. I don't get to talk to my daddy, because obviously. And now I wont get to talk to my mom. Mu ( Read more... )

"..you cant have a man look at you for more then 5 seconds without you being insecure.."

happy july 5th. lol. i had an okay weekend. i got off work 8am sunday morning, it was elmers 26th birthday, so i talked to him for a little bit and hung out here at home. took a jog. then took my uncle to the hospital because hes been having siezures like crazy ( Read more... )

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So. Ive been talking to this guy named elmer for a month now. Hes completely sweet. A real charmer, yanno those to good to be true guys... Anyway. It started out slow... Where we just spoke a few times a day and then he stayed up all night to talk to me while I worked. And he kept saying how nice it was to be able to talk someone who was so nice. ( Read more... )

its almost midnight my time, i am getting ready to go to bed. but i wanted to update. not that there is much to update, in fact there really isnt anything to update. but ive been speaking to this guy named Elmer the past few weeks, a month or so. He has been great. we have so much in common, and we get along really well, over phone and text. he is ( Read more... )

I've never met anyone like you. I've never agreed with practically every word a man has said. I've never been with a man who can call me on my insecurities. But you know it isn't just those things, it's everything My heart skips a beat every time I hear you say my name, just because it's coming from your mouth. you're voice is intoxicating ( Read more... )