i think it's official, sopuch and kopania should have a competition to determine who's the most boring teacher ever. both of their voices are so incredibly monotonous, both have the most irritating idiosyncracies, both say the same thing over and over again while ignoring your participation, i don't know who would win.

wow it's been a while. what do you do when you're emotionally responsible for someone else's state of mind? do you just cut them loose and tell them that they're on their own, regardless of what may happen to them? or do you sacrfice your own happinesses and dreams to keep them alive and hopefully as sane as possible?

ha! life really has a way of kicking you in the ass sometimes. apparently i'm too "good" for some people. not "good" as in quality, "good" as in behavior, attitudes, point of view. and i just don't know what to make of it. i really don't understand why you wouldn't wanna see someone simply because you drink and do drugs, and they don't. it doesn't ( Read more... )

i finally did it. i lied to my parents about where i was. somehow i thought it'd feel different. before i did it (when i was contemplating just how i would do it-oh yes it was indeed premeditated), i was so afraid and my conscience was really bothering me. but now that i've done it, and gotten away with it, i feel great. i wonder how many more ( Read more... )

i think i'm bipolar or something. i'll be in the most horrible mood one minute and then happy the next. i think it has to do with my level of activity. if i'm not doing anything i can sit around and dwell on the things that upset me (which is almost everything these days), but if i'm doing something to distract me, i'm okay. so today i'm okay. it's ( Read more... )

so you all know those days when you have something very heavy weighing on your mind. it makes you miserable, and everyone can see it on your face. but you still try your damndest to avoid talking about it ( Read more... )

okay so this whole summer thing is supposed to be all carefree and fun. well so far i'm freakin bored out of my mind. the most enjoyable thing i did today was make myself a breakfast sandwich. and now begins the perpetual cycle of living meal to meal. why u may ask... there's nothing else to do. then i gain back the 20 lbs i lost and then i get all ( Read more... )

did you ever get that feeling when you wake up, "i think today's gonna be a good day." you don't really know why, but it just feels like everything's going to be okay. well today was one of those days. so far, it's lived up to my expectations. there was a slight glitch in the am. i got pissed because man drove to the bus stop and just so happened ( Read more... )

okay so i did it. i told my dad the absolute and total truth about how i feel. he reacted as i expected. he was disappointed, and i think somewhat fearful. but to tell the truth, i'm more fearful than he is. then he told liz (also expected) and she had her smart-ass comments and opinions to state (also expected). the thing is, i don't know if ( Read more... )

when you've got a really tough decision to make, you hafta weigh the scales. you have to take the pluses and minuses of whatever it is you're choosing between and make your choice. what if the choice you want to make is the one that has more minuses?