Nobody can hate me more than I do right now.

This sucks. I mean really. I am sick and tired of people twisting my words, any words, and tell me what I'm thinking or feeling. I was going back over the facebook messages, and stuff she said just didn't make sense. How could me saying that I know where they live be a threat in the first place, and then tell me she s been scared to sleep thinking ( Read more... )

.... tastes like ass. But you know, toothaches. Looks like another sleepless night ( Read more... )

A few years ago, I had friends. A few friends, but no close ones. Now I have a whole family. And I am so grateful for them, trying so hard to cheer James and I up. I only cried a few times today. James only cried once. Progress! Going to try on wedding dresses this weekend. I know they wont have anything to make me beautiful, but if I could find ( Read more... )

I honestly thought everything was okay. I don't know what happened. Why is this out of the blue? Why do they think I'm still hung up on David? But I feel like I did when I was 19. just worthless, just crap, just i don't know. We're all miserable. i don't understand. Why couldn't they talk to me ( Read more... )

I don't understand. David is very upset with me but I had thought we were moving forward. how could I have been so wrong? How could I have thought we were getting better when obviously I was way off on  my judgement. What else was I wrong about? When i try and help people do i just hurt them? I think this is what I needed, this blow to my false ( Read more... )

My head is all over the place with Christmas and making everything and trying to do FUCK ALL and the wedding and then there's him. And I don't want to think about him. I'm a broken record. Anything to distract my thoughts from him I really just try to avoid it. And him. I act one way or another just to not act like I just want to hold him and well ( Read more... )

I'm going to try and describe how I feel right now. All it takes is just one thing. One little something, and I'm a mess. And I'm just screaming inside myself that this is wrong, that him and her are wrong and no, I don't want him all to myself. It just feels WRONG. so very wrong. And I can't say it without looking like the superbitch who just got ( Read more... )

I'm getting married. I'm alive. Life doesn't suck so much. 

do you get the feeling that i'm laughing at you? I am! now ask me why. Come on, I dare you...