so many things running through my head, mostly things I shouldn`t say. i want to "tell all" so to speak. It`s not good to keep secrets. maybe I shouldn't anymore.

Watch for something later. Got something up my sleeve.

Feeling REALLY purple today...

I mostly just feel used. I knew in the back of my mind that he would get scared and go back, but really? 5 days? REALLY? So I wonder who he was thinking of last weekend on my couch...

He's a damn coward, and I'm sorry if this sounds bitter (cuz I am) but if you come to a realization that you're not meant to be with ( Read more... )

The proverbial shit hit the fan at my house this week involving me, James, and Bob. To say that me and bob are on unstable ground would be an understatement. Me and James, though...we're good. we're more than good. We're GRRRRRRRRRRRREAT. we've figured out ourselves and now if he just actually does what he says he needs to...we'd be stepping ( Read more... )

    I really need to get somethings out, so bear with me, and if this hurts anyone who reads this, I am TRULY sorry. That's not my intention. I just can't hold it in anymore.

After damn near 4 years together and being broken up for almost a year, Bob finally buys me a ring.  (It's a promise ring) And lets me go, all in the same day.  Constant ( Read more... )

...then I can't say anything at all, right? Well, at least for now. I should be enjoying myself, but I can`t. Because I made an effort, like I promised. And in return, I`m getting dirty looks to the back of my head. So, no, I`m not saying A DAMN WORD! But I made the effort, right? So am I in the ( Read more... )

I'm sorry for things I can't control. But I'm DONE PLAYING NICE! It gets me nowhere. Jessica has taken over. I'm done trying to control her for you.

So, I snuck out to the library to write today...and I'm just trying. That's all i want to say. I'm trying. I made a promise, and I'm sticking to it. I'm basically just plain dealing with my situation right now, and While I'm not happy, i get to see him almost every day, and I get to be around him...and I'm ok with that. For now ( Read more... )

im not trying to break up James and Tina. i wouldnt hurt him like that. stop assuming what im writing about and just ask me, nosy ass people.

Follow your instincts, honey. It's a rule to live by. Examples:

1) If you meet someone, and you think you could be good with that person...it may not be permanent, but at least you'll never regret not knowing. Go with it...try it out.

2) If you feel like something may be wrong, follow it. We almost lost Mark Wahlberg on 9-11.

3) And most important ( Read more... )