can't say that i've felt this way for a long time. likened to working behind a coffee counter smelling beans wearing red, watching the sea of heads for any number of highschool sweethearts who would come to see me, virgin dunkin donuts worker, free from any scars, just waiting, anticipating who would it be? and now i am still anticipating, but now ( Read more... )

i can honestly say after a brief sampling of journals over the last 5 years
i've decided to take them all down by the time i graduate and compile them in hard copy
that it is painfully evident i struggle with depression

no really no no no really i am coming down the homestretch and have just finished my longest homework session this semester=consisting of 3 hours listening to the news while typing one paragraph in french, downloading some articles i should read and cracking my mathbook open. no more no less. i am truly a slacker. i can't really explain it except, ( Read more... )

reading back over the last few posts: 12 or so. jesus. am i dismal. i am dismal. not today. so today i will post. today the sun is shining although christmas eve creeps up. right now i'm drinking hot homemade chai and eating sugar cookies. i'm wearing mostly blue today and my favorite round labradorite ring. there is a big red pointsetta smiling at ( Read more... )

Why do i wander to live journal??? why do i wander here. why is here where i write for now? i have been procrastinating big big big time lately. so big time. is that what being a senior is all about.? shouldn't i take the GRE's and get ramped up? shouldn't i care about my GPA? but i don't. and lately, i've just been slacking. in one respect it ( Read more... )

he got a job offer in long beach california ( Read more... )

so we made love ( Read more... )

so i feel like i need to write today. i am sitting in the back of the pavillion auditorium in the oob listening to my dad do his routine for 400 plus people. i have a massive headache and am sipping on cold starbucks coffee. i am so glad that they have internet here, i wish i could find an advil the size of my head to chew on. today after the ( Read more... )

i am here to confess ( Read more... )

"the way out is the way through"

"you are alot smarter than you think you are" x2

" i would like you to think your relationship to writing "