It's been a while hasn't it lol

So yeah im in new york with becca and yeah havin a F~in blast. I mean yeah who seriously gets to go to New york for there b~day. N im really glad i have my bestfriend with me! i m like whoo damn and im lookin at her right now n she looks so cute. So yeah im pretty dumb i thought were goin to Chicago still...wow i need to start catchin on more often ( Read more... )

im sittin here thinkin....why cant i be happy? dont i deserve happiness like everyone else.... why do i always have to like the guy that doesnt like me or prolly does juss doesnt want to show it....i mean come on and the guyz i do end up goin with are asses and i usual hate them after we break up. wuts the point..... i juss need to move on...and ( Read more... )

ugh i so fuckin depressed. i dont care im gonna say everything that im feeling right now. I wanna cry right now and i feel like i have to throw up. I miss nico so fuckin much and i dont know y and that pisses me off beyond all reason cuz he has a new gf which is understandable but goddamn! when she came over his house when i was over there i ( Read more... )

wow i havent wrote in a long time....where should i start...well 2day was my dads goin away party cuz hes leavin for Iraq this weekend and he wont be here for homecomming but thats ok i understand. Im ok bout it...friday wow that was crazy...i was fine until that had to say something bout my dad..then me n becca started bawling our eyes out...yeah ( Read more... )

so yeah im over my cuzzin shaylas house right now and waiting to pick her up from drivers training soon. So let me juss update a couple of things. My cousins wedding is this weekend so were gettin ready for it. so thats y i ve been a lil busy lately. Uhm...boyz....to many at the moment! UGH! help me i juss got like 4 new numbers! my cellphone an ( Read more... )

i have been thinking alot. bout me as a person and my friends...weither some of them are good for me as a person. Do they make me someone im not or do they juss get on my nerves. I have realized that some of the pplz that i do call my friends either use me, are two faced to me, or juss hang with me when they have no one eles to hang with. I was ( Read more... )

today wasnt the best day. I mean it could have went better i guess. My cousins are over....help me....the 2 annoying ones. but yeah so there makin my day miserable....then last night i realized something and i decided to do wut was best for me....its bout time, i mean i felt like this for how long, 3 monthz prolly. sigh oh well ya know....this is ( Read more... )

i can only use on word to describe how i feel right now...pissed off.....pissed off the the highest level of pissivity. I wanted to go to beccas house to day and my MOM knew bout it but im so use to this...she said no at the last min. but thats ok. its fine got 1 more year and she expects me to stay her and go to college still locked down. HEX naw ( Read more... )

i feel like shyt right now. yeah 2day was like one the worse days for me. yeah 2day i broke up with eric....for certain reason( not him ) and so yeah thats one then i pulled something in my other leg and repulled the thing i pulled in my other leg/ass area....and yeah my chest hurts and feet and yeah basically all over from softball. then dealin ( Read more... )