If it were complete and utter, I wouldn't have this problem.

I think I'm the only person who gets myself into these situations. But how I love them.

Also as an edit to my last entry: I've started on my toes. Double digits. Puns are funny, shut up.

There are times in life where we take a completely different perspective on everything that we hold to be our personal truths. All of what perceive in our day-to-day lives seems irrelevant and it seems easiest in these moments to throw all of it away. All of our worries and our fears: our rational minds as we know them are gone in the blink of an ( Read more... )

i found my journal.

go me!

whenever i say that i don't care, it's probably because i care way too much and i'm tired of doing so ( Read more... )

why do i always end up with boys that act like this? it's like i have asshole radar and everytime i see a potential candidate to treat me like crap i'm like, OH HIM!! woot woot... fucking ridiculous. i really thought this one was different. wasn't the first gemini who fooled me. meh, i think if it comes down to it i'll probably try to get a ( Read more... )

i just don't know about anything anymore. i honestly can't even handle getting out of bed. i just want to be normal and happy and have normal things and a normal life but apparently i "dont want it badly enough"

i'm a terrible person to be around. i don't know why the fuck anyone puts up with me. it's disgusting.maybe this is just another rut i'm ( Read more... )

maybe.

staggering between. grey area. unknown.

maybe.

maybe fucking NOT.

jesus christ i miss her so fucking much. i actually laughed the other day like, to the point of having hiccups over something. and i realized it was the first time i'd really felt comfortable enough around another person to laugh like that since she had left ( Read more... )

i've got time to waste.