i've been writing entries every night, and then just making them private. i'm a creep. i don't know why i'm so afraid to wear this on my sleeve. maybe it's just too personal.

i still haven't cut.

i never thought i'd walk away from you. i did. but it's a false sense of accomplishment, everytime i quit.

i've updated this a couple of times over the past week, and every time i get to the end, i decide that what i am saying is too personal, so i set it as private. which is ridiculous because it's my livejournal, not my super-personal diary. which brings me to my question: what the hell is a livejournal/blog for ( Read more... )

it's been eight months since kris and i broke up. i remember him coming over my house, and i was really excited because we had been fighting a lot, and i thought he'd get me something nice and try to make up with me. but he came over with nothing, which i thought was a joke or something. and i was just like "what! i dont get a present?" and him ( Read more... )

i always think i have everything so figured out, know exactly what i want, etc... but i'm just at a loss. yes, i probably could be more vague. and maybe i should.

so yeah. i haven't updated in a while. so yeah. i had off for the past two days... me and jeff dyed our hair QUITE a lot, haha. i ended up looking horrid. alas, i dyed my hair again today and it's back to basically the same exact color it was before! his hair's blondish now, i think. i don't know. the other nite was crazy, we ended up leaving and ( Read more... )

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i don't want to talk about it. now or ever. to anyone.

right?

hi livejournal. it is very late and i am very tired and i work a lot. tylenol daytime cold and nighttime cold are the same thing, do not let them lie to you. daytime upsets my stomach a lot more. it feels like it's fizzling in there. i do not think this is normal. i never know what day it is anymore. i never win money on instant lottery tickets, ( Read more... )

i cant believe its still the same year that it was when it started because a lot of things are different

im fucking insane tonite.i wish i could just go to sleep. ugh.