I know you are all as shocked and angry and frustrated as I am ( Read more... )

I can't blame anything, not the stress of Idol in general or seeing a lot of my friends going through some really weird stuff or being all starstruck the last two nights or anything. It's just all my head being really weird.

Yeah, this is another serious post with no serious icon to go with it (Thanks, Judd! You really are a sweetheart), and not ( Read more... )

( [OOC but not quite like that] )

Finally I dragged Anwar out for a little dancing last night after rehearsals. Not that I really had to drag him, but you know. First we talked and got our misunderstanding-that-wasn't out of the way and then we went to a place that was big enough and dark enough that he wouldn't be recognized, plus he tucked his hair up under a hat, which I was ( Read more... )

Yeah, I'm not leaving yet for St. Louis. I have all my life to be there if I want to and only a couple months to hang out with you guys. I have to be able to beat Travis at chess, then I'm going to take on Anthony. I also got invited into MBP, which is pretty darn cool. I haven't had the guts to really say hello to anyone not associated with AI ( Read more... )

I'm not good at figuring out cryptic or subtle. I think it's because I'm so optimistic that if someone isn't really direct, I can twist what they say and do to mean whatever I want it to mean. Someone can just be friendly, and I'll read all kinds of meaning into it ( Read more... )

Mario, you know you are welcome in the Reject Room with Travis and I if you still want to stick around here, even though of course you aren't a reject. You know how to find any of us no matter where you are. We support you and your decision whole-heartedly, even though we'll miss you like crazy. Only you can decide what's right for you ( Read more... )

Today Travis and Judd and I went on a Big Awesome Reject Adventure. Travis wanted mini-golf, Judd wanted to be superheroes, and I wanted the beach and needed to go shopping because I promised I'd buy Connie the five pounds of sugar that he wanted ( Read more... )

Amanda and Travis, you're both welcome to stay here in the hotel with me in The Reject Room. It's a lot of fun, alcohol, no curfew, no rules about visitors. I know everyone would love to have you stick around here ( Read more... )

Last night Judd was my escort to the show and of course we had a great time. One of my favorite parts was when it was Bo's turn. He was great, of course, but I also sometimes watched Judd watching Bo, which was adorable. You could see how he felt about Bo right there on his face. It made me want to pinch his cheeks even more than I usually do. ( Read more... )