it's so fucking common that our society has come up with a word to describe this stupid, bitchy behavior ( Read more... )

ok- i'm so fucking sick of arrogant assholes who think that their specialty is the only one that has value. you shouldn't judge an entire discipline based on one class. i'm the first to admit i hated gen bio and it was boring and almost pure memorization, but that doesn't make biology a non-science, waste of time and it doesn't mean that " ( Read more... )

i'm trying to deal with a bunch of stuff right now. and i'm still standing, so that's something but i still don't think i'm doing a great job of dealing with this shit ( Read more... )

so i'm not having a good day. at all. i'm thinking about visiting the one person who is the worst for my mental and emotional health. i just found out that one of the main reasons i came here isn't valid. it kills me, because i have enough of an issue dealing with my choices when i had all the facts and know i made the right choice. now the ( Read more... )

i have decided to spend the weekend doing absolutely nothing that could be considered productive. i got more sleep today then i'm used to in a week. i spent the end of this week being completely exhausted because i'm not used to have a schedule and i was driving all over western new york last weekend. so far i've succeeded in not being ( Read more... )

there are a few things i've recently realized i hate ( Read more... )

so i used to think there was nothing that empire records and cake batter ice cream couldn't fix. i was wrong. they can't make me feel any better after the night i had. that's probably because i should have known and i really did bring this on myself. at least that's what the logical part of my brain is saying. right now it's kind of being over ( Read more... )

so i'm really tired. i didn't really do anything today, or yesterday for that matter but still. i sat around and did a little bit with bacteria and spent the rest of the time reading scientific papers. i almost fell asleep reading today. granted the paper wasn't exciting but still. this is what happens with two hours of sleep to me now. i ( Read more... )

it's kind of interesting to read through some of my earlier entries. it still surprises me how quickly things change. like when i said i was 99.9999% sure i was going to a&m and here i am in rochester. other things too- like how our perceptions of actions change with time and by knowing the motivation behind them. i've been thinking about ( Read more... )

so i'm back in new york and almost done unpacking (thank god!) i'm torn- i love it here and i think that i'll really enjoy the lab i'm joining but i already miss my friends, family, and my kitty (who may join me in a year) so this is one of those wait and see situations. i may love it, i may not. but here's the difference between this time and ( Read more... )