so i'm still bouncing around the house, i'm so happy.  i'm planning to take whatever interviews/visits i'm offered but i am 99.99999% positive i know where i'll be in the fall and i couldn't be happier about it.  it's a great program.  it's warm there.  it's close to home.  it's close to a bunch of friends.  i may already have a totally awesome ( Read more... )

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i really want to be happy for the people around me.  for the most part i think i am.  i find joy in the achievements and happiness of those i love.  but to be honest i find myself being jealous as well.  i am trying to be happy with where i am and not where i could have been.  i need to enjoy the here and now and not the possible future i could ( Read more... )

why do i insist on making the same stupid fucking mistake again and again?  i'm fine with making mistakes- that human.  this is idiocy.  i want to learn from my mistakes and change.  must of the time i do.  it seems like this is the ONE that i am doomed to repeat till the day i die.

at what point do you stop trying to fix something that's broken?  where's the line?  if you've done everything you can to no avail is it ok to walk away?  because honestly some things can't be fixed so there's no point to spending time and energy trying to make it work.  but can you ever really give up on someone ( Read more... )

let me say this as clearly as i possibly can- i have enough of my own shit to deal with.  i don't have the time, energy, or desire to deal with yours.

ok.  so let me start by saying i don't lie.  i know that there have been times when i've messed up on this and times in my life when this rule wasn't important to me, but i've been lied to a lot in my life and i know how much it sucks.  so as a general rule i try my best not to lie.  even little things.  but i do believe in phrasing things in a ( Read more... )

so about a week and a half ago i got to see some really good friends of mine that i haven't seen in a really long time.  it was great.  the weekend was so much fun and we had a great time.  i was bouncily happy for days.  unfortunately now i miss them even more.  it's killing me ( Read more... )

it feels like that's all i've been doing these days.  waiting.  right now i'm waiting for tomorrow.  i'm happy.  i've missed my TAMS friends like crazy.  so tomorrow i get to see my best friend and then we;re meeting up with one of my old roommates.  i haven't seen her in almost two years.  so i'm bouncing with anticipation ( Read more... )

it's been a while.  i kind of feel like i've dropped off the face of the earth and no one even blinked.  so this is just my rant about my life and doesn't really mean anything but here it is anyway.  i'm working on grad school stuff still- i have two essays left and they just might kill me.  i'm taking the GRE in less then two weeks so i should ( Read more... )