i miss God. i miss the company of someone utterly loyal. i still dont think of God as my betrayer. the servants of God,yes, but servants by their very nature betray. i miss God who was my friend. i dont even kno if God exists, but i do kno that if God is your emotional role model, very few human relationships will match up to it ( Read more... )

my fear of hurting someone has made me overestimate my own importance...

that definately sums up A LOT!

I dont even hav to write a journal about all the events and emotions invoked during fall break...a few simple quotes that were said will do! even tho anyone who wasnt there wont have a clue as to the depth of the words spoken, words jus cannot express! *sigh ( Read more... )

...can be deceiving
like faces
are to hearts
they serve for
sweet relieving
when fantasy
and reality
lie too far apart

"why you gon play me like that and let some trick ass hoe write on your wall like im nothin!!!!!!!! noooooothinnnnnnnnnnn!"

"So since I’m not your everything
How about I'll be nothing
Nothing at all to you
Baby I wont shead a tear for you
I won't lose a wink of sleep
Cause the truth of the matter is
Replacing you is (NOT) so easy" );

wat i knew today ( Read more... )

my new cute looks realy cute ina low p0onytail!!! lol

i miss God. i miss the company of someone utterly loyal. i still dont think of God as my betrayer. the servants of God,yes, but servants by their very nature betray. i miss God who was my friend. i dont even kno if God exists, bit i do kno that if God is your emotional role model, very few human relationships will match up to it...

Lauren got her cam which equals elation all around.

i got my jeans i so desperately really didnt need at all and some sandals.

k, the deep shit later, i gotta study!

but i ended up just being honest. i didnt want to see another really good friend get hurt or mislead. idk. i feel really bad, but theres no way i could fall for NEONE right now! i just need some time.