Confusion. Pure, uninterrupted, life altering confusion. I feel like I lose out if I stay here, lose out if I leave. I feel like I've pent my whole life searching only to have life say ' well here it is. by the way, you cant have it'. It just makes me wonder what, if anything, is meant for me. What life am I aiming towards, when I wake up everyday ( Read more... )

Where to begin? I cannot stand my life. I suppose I could just stop there, but I'm going to vent for awhile longer because this is my only venue in which to do it. I feel like theres nobody to talk to, nobody cares enough to listen to me. I'm a terrible friend sometimes, and yet I sit here writing about how I wish someone would care enough to ( Read more... )

Happy new year everyone :) hopefully happier than last year. lets just say 2006, for the most part, was a terrible year and i really hope 2007 is better ( Read more... )

For once, I feel like I actually have alot to say. Mostly because my computer is broken so I havent updated in forever. Lets start with florida....my sisters cheerleading squad won a trip to compete in disney at nationals.That was fun, they won first place in their division, which was great. It was during floridas cold spell though, so it was ( Read more... )

So update...lets see. what has happened to me this month ( Read more... )

what an excellent birthday :) it was yesterday and i was feeling kinda sucky because it didnt look like anything fun was going to happen on my actual birthday, i went to school and i had to work that night. then amy surprised me with brittany(yay to you guys) and they took me out for y "special night" umm stop eating the paste please....you guys ( Read more... )

so to anyone who doesnt know, i dont really like halloween. yeah i loved to trick or treat when i was kid and everything but as far as 'oh my god what are your big halloween plans?!?!?!' im sorry i just dont feel that its that big of an event that i should have huge plans. so anyway my plans ended up being eating pizza with jenna, which is totally ( Read more... )

amy brittany and "fe" (preferably known as felicia though) girls nights always make me feel better. the dennys comfort food, the loser car karaoke...haha and sometimes the real karaoke if the mood is right. and of course malls and crazy costumes, and the little mermaid. were fun. almost like a vacation, but then i had to come home and real life was ( Read more... )

happy almost birthday jenna! friday was so much fun, people i never get to see anymore and we all got to hang out for an entire night.i didnt realize how much i missed all of you, and how much i missed just hanging out with good friends and being comfortable and not having to worry about anything.i mean there were what, 10 of us? plus 7 boxes of ( Read more... )

where are you? suddenly it feels like the only reason i wake up everyday, the only reason that i can even justify breathing is that maybe today...maybe today is the day it will all turn around. today ill find you. today something great will happen to me and it will make it all worth it. i dont want to wake up everyday and think 'if i can just make ( Read more... )