recently today i read a letter from one of my very good friends, and it follows as ( Read more... )

warped tour was great and spent it with some wonderful people, and saw some great bands and alot of people i havent seen in forever it seems, and i was myself for once, not acting out on something, i saw erin, dereks little sisiert i didnt know who she was at ffirst then she was liek amanda dont you remember me and i was liek no sorry and she was ( Read more... )

ya so i just got off the phone with derek, it felt good to hear his voice again, i get butterflys, and a good feeling, just talking to him makes me happy, we talked about how weve been and about josh and ashley, and i told him that i missed him and he said he did to and i thought i was going to cry, and i am, this is all bullshit, i wanted to tell ( Read more... )

we are ALL bound to have a BROKEN HEART...... thats my message to everyone, im done with saying i love you to guys, i realized that its not worth it, its all just lust for now....so ya allie spent the nigth last night and we went put put golfing i golfed she didnt, and it was with my brither and his friends my dad and bridgett, she was so cute ( Read more... )

ya so its 4 am and im still awake and i have work today but i cant go to sleep because i cant stop thinking what if. so ive listened to this cd about 6 times already and i have 2 all time favorite songs......With a tremblin' pen in hand I try the best I can ( Read more... )

ya so tonight ans last night i hung out with josh, and allie, and pj and it was great, but tonight it was mainly just me and josh and we talked for liek 2 hours it was great about alot of things and i made allie go inside so i can talk to him, i like him, but its hard to like him, i might start working at taylor farms but im not sure yet we shall ( Read more... )

so these past couple of days have been funfilled you can say, umm i got to talking to derek again but its all good, dont really care bout that all that much anymore, saw the notebook again, and it was good again,

i dont know where to start but that i have been thinking alot lately about Derek, and i want to like hit myself for thinking about him, but i cant, its so hard for me to think of what i would do if i saw him, and i need to tell him some things, i started writing him a letter knowing i wouldnt give it to him, but hes happy i know he is but somehow ( Read more... )

yesterday i went to hatteras with allie, pj, jason, kevin, jess, and josh, we left around 230am but it was all good, it was so much fun, but i did eat alot of shit, and i have a swollen chin now or did but its all good, im relly glad i went, but ya so today i woke up thinking i had to work went to work fouind out i work nights so it was just great ( Read more... )

going to hatteras with allie pj and i dono whoelse tomorrow morning, staying at her house tonight, umm today me and allie had a good convo about her night and what was said and i feel good about what she said and ya, went to the hospital today to see baby matthew hes sooooooo cute, and has a head of hair, my god, but hes sooooo cute, cane home and ( Read more... )