Wooo wooo toot toot goes the manic train
Slicing tiny pieces and feeding on my brainAfter three days of truly phenomenal activity (this coming from the girl who has only left the house to see my shrink or therapist for almost two months), this total lack of sleep for the past three nights makes me think maybe I need the mood stabilizer my doctor ( Read more... )

Everybody's asleep. And I'm still awake (probably because my morning meds keep me knocked out until around 1PM ( Read more... )

I can't sleep. There's not much worse than being all alone at nighttime when everyone is asleep, especially when you're prone to seeing things when left all alone at night ( Read more... )

So here's the deal. I ODed on Klonopin and muscle relaxers Tuesday night, a totally impulsive suicide attempt that was very ill planned. Justin walked in on me before I took enough to do too much damage, but still 911 was called, cops came to my apartment, and I was carted back to my friends at the Behavioral Health Center. So that sucked ( Read more... )

I've been stricken with this god-awful, hurts when you move headache all freaking day. So the early part of the day consisted of lying in bed with an ice pack on my head reading Franny and Zooey. I'm on this really big Salinger kick right now, for some reason. Just really fits my mood. And the latter part of the day consisited of lying on the ( Read more... )

Well, there's nothing wrong with my thyroid. Which is good, in a way, because I don't want to have thyroid problems on top of everything else. But my shrink and my mom had been building it up for so long that if I got my hypothetical thyroid problem medicated it would stop my rapid cycling, make my cycles less severe, end my depression. Like it ( Read more... )

I am so tense ( Read more... )

I looked through my senior year book tonight. Bad idea. I had friends, I had guys who wanted to go out with me, I was skinny, I was captain of the High IQ team, I had a future, I was sane.

That was six years ago, and where am I now? College drop-out, 40 lbs overweight, scarred from all the cutting, and bipolar...it's like the pink elephant in ( Read more... )

I have the flu. And my top left wisdom tooth has gone rogue. I feel like seven different layers of shit. ("That's a lot of shit", Justin would say.) I just want to sleep until I feel better ( Read more... )

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