Bleh...

[amanda_waldo]

So the year has trickled into October - what used to be my favorite month. I wish I could say I've been working on writing my query, or that I've been working on book two more than I have, but instead I've allowed myself to fall into this depression. This is the month my dad died last year, and while I'm trying, it's difficult to feel positive

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[lazy_iris]

I am so sorry to hear about your dad. That's awful, I can't even imagine what you must be going through, even after a year.

I feel the same way about watching other writers have what I want and what I'm trying to get. It's a weird combination between being happy for them and being really jealous. If you ever need help with the query, I would be happy to oblige.

Sometimes writing is the only thing that keeps me sane, through school and the job and family crap and everything. Even though, by anyone else's idea of what a normal schedule is, I don't have time to write, I still do it. Did you ever think of just carving out a little time for it? It might feel stressful, but maybe it will lift your spirits.

I hope you feel better soon!

[amanda_waldo]

Thanks! I think somewhere inside of me, it's always going to be a little rough as far as my dad goes.

It's really nice to meet people who know how I am feeling as far as the writing thing goes. I think a lot of my problem is that I talk myself down too much, and sometimes that keeps me from staying on task.

Good idea, though. I will have to assign some special time in the week for writing and make it a part of my schedule.

[cmuhottie85]

I am sorry to hear you are feeling that way!! I wish I knew the words to say that could help you out. I am sure your dad is looking down on you and thinking about how proud he is of the person you have become. I am sure that he is up there doing what he can to help you make sense of things. If you have need anything please know I am always here for you! I am living at the rents right now, so I am only like 2 minutes from you now! I miss you!

[amanda_waldo]

Thanks, Kim! I miss you too. I seem to be getting every other weekend off from work. If you'd like to hang out sometime, just give me a call! I'd love to see you again!