Wow, It's been almost a year since I last updated this journal. I've been mostly updating on my blogger. I cannot stop sneezing today, I'm sat working in my moms office with her. I think she made me sick. I want my soup... I havent eaten yet today and I feel rough as F**k. There's an idiot just rung up right now from this hotel in Liverpool and he ( Read more... )

YaK! Im sick today, just like I was yesterday, and Tash is coming up, which is guna bug the hell outta me because I just want to sleep... Im going out tomorrow... gunna head up town with a few friends from college which should be fun. I just wanna bump into greg and andy so Laura can have a heartattack! =P *drools over andy* If i had a way to get ( Read more... )

Yeah... im kinda suprised I havent' had any hate mail recently... ive been such a jerk and im really sorry for it. All the people that mean something to me... well... they must hate me and i hate myself for that. I don't know why ive been on such a downer, ive just been working myself into the ground and have had no time for myself let alone anyone ( Read more... )

Well fuck me it's been a long time. I don't have much that I want to write in here really, lately I haven't wanted anyone to know what's going on with my life because basically... it sucks. I keep having feeling like i wanna cut myself again but i don't want to... if that makes sense... i need to go on a diet! I'm eating some random thing called ( Read more... )

Deep and blue, I’m looking in, trying to find out every single little sin

But there’s not one, I can’t believe, that you are innocent, more innocent than me.

My heart it beats, I never knew that I would ever feel this strongly about you. I could watch, you for all time, and I could sit and hear you jibber I don’t mind. My heart it says, that ( Read more... )

Confused

Wish I, could stop this, and I, could be happy

But I know that, whilst you’re around

I can’t do anything at all

You, know that I’m scared

And you play on it so well

You, build me up to tear me down

You stand me up, and then throw me to the ground

I hate it, I don’t know what to do, and I’m so scared of you… Confused

I’m, so tired of ( Read more... )

Ok, I'm sorry about yesterday, I was having a bad day, I said waay too much to one person imparticular and I feel pretty shitty for dumping my shit onto them. I'm better today though, even kinda hyperish I guess... I have to go and see Leonie today and give her some college stuff, she's working till 5 so I have to take it up to work for her... I'll ( Read more... )

Please help me understand this
I don't know what to do
My head and my heart are burning
Burning with desire for you
I don't think I can handle
All this new worse pain
I don't know why i'm writing this
I suck, this is soo Lame...

I don't know what I'm thinking, I'm having the worst day in the history of worst days. I don't know who to turn to, to talk to, I ( Read more... )

I don’t believe I loved you

How could you do what you did?

You’ve scarred me forever

What sort of a life is this for me to live?

I’m scared of so many people

It’s hard for me to make new friends

You’re sick, pure evil

Your torturing face will be with me to the end

I don’t know what I’m doing now

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to love

It’s all ( Read more... )

I want him to be here soo bad right now... I seriously think that no one knows or understands how much i love him and want him. I can't help but cry knowing that there is so much space between us right now, why can't he live here? I hope he's not angry with me, the fact that I couldn't ring his mobile this weekend because my dad put a ban on ( Read more... )