i want to be happy again.

[amongthelivingx]

i'm talking about really, truly happy.  the kind of happy that you are when you're a kid and nothing in the world can taint your innocent look on everything.  i want to be happy for no particular reason at all.  to feel alive.  to love life.  i know this is out of nowhere.  but i think this is where a lot of my problems stem from.  i realized

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hey thanks for writing. (:

[amongthelivingx]

yeah, i'm fine. ish haha. been having a hard time, haven't been on here in a while really discouraged but i'm back. :P how're you? <3

[saffyjames]

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[ilyolivia]

<3 this entry made me cry. I'm right their with you. I'll pray for you.

[silentredbones]

Try laughing when your out for a walk for no reason...people look at you like you are a crazy person who just escaped from a mental home! Lol!
But your entry was perfect...amazing words and completely true. I wish I could erase my past, go to that childhood. Even though everything was wrong, it didn't matter...

[anorexic_witch]

my number is 1-705-879-1945

so basically i'm 20
my grandad died two days ago
my dad had cancer twice and survived
I have only one sister who seems too keep reminding everyone I have an ED
then there's the part when I got hit by a truck and my friend saved me but died doing it
my heart got broken really badly and my current best/ex boyfriend left and went to nova scotia out of no ware
I have multiple scleroses
I'm 20
I weigh 100 pounds
I'm fighting home recovery
I'm trying to sneak everything
I'm planning to go back to collage
for advertising-creative media in canadore collage.
I love writing
short stories mostly
my goal weight is 88 pounds
I'v decided this year I'm reaching and achieving happiness
I'm staring to be a bit happier and I like it

thats pretty much me in a not shell I figured you'd want to know some stuff about me
sense were going to be support friends

[amongthelivingx]

hey sorry it took a while to reply, i was sort of having a major panic attack. i added your number but i need to charge my phone which is wwhy i'm replying here. i'm 17, almost 18. i'm really into writing too, mainly poetry. but i'm going for a pharmacy degree (or so i hope). i'm 5"5' and 115 lbs. (fat, fat, fat), bmi is 19.1 ahh. my issues are mainly trust issues with my ex and not being able to get over it. which is what the panic attack was about, this meltdown i had drunk in front of my current bf friday night. i'm sorry to hear about all of that, you've been through a lot. i hope my age isn't an issue. xo

[anorexic_witch]

age is not an issue my bestfriend is 16 lol
I live in a small town
beaverton, ontario
I swear guys suck
the saddest i'v ever bin has bin caused by guys
if you don't mind me asking what caued the trust issue with your ex
my ex was my bestfriend, name Travis. after 3 years of trying to go out with me and gaining trust he decided the army life is for him. wants to goo to base in april but then he decides heck i'll goo to live with my grandparents during that time. All the way in nova scotia. It sucks, trust me I know those stupid panic attacks. here not nice. I can't manage to eat much now. my tummy just hurts when I think even he couldn't love me. I'm trying so hard to be happy you know but its like the harder I try the further happiness rides away. My granddad always said i'd find the one...so I believe him.