so i'm sadly dissapointed my friends
its not about weight in this paragraph
my computer died, not crashed
died....
I was watching "the vampire diaries".
a pop up from norton virius checker came up
said, "high rish threat must shut down to remove."
I ofcource waited till the epiode I was watching was over
I shut off the computer
then it won't load ( Read more... )

Hey girls
oh wow its been three days now sleeping
only up for 2 hours at a time
so I read on the MS society page what a factor could be
they said over heated.
Makes sense I do sleep with a heating pad
I removed the heating pad plus to antidepressant pills boom
not tired
I have a headache though
I don't realy remember the last three days
with being in sleep ( Read more... )

 Wow ok girls, do I have somethings to tell you
first of all my MS has it fatigue mood
holly crap
I was asleep for almost two full days
so I' really out of it
my mom made me get up for suppers and to go pee
I'm like a zombie
then at the supper table yesterday my dad 
yells at me
about how if I don't start eating im going to the hospital
first of all I held ( Read more... )

 I feel like such a pig
I just binged
not a bad binge but I just screwed up my 180 calz
I just got so hungry and saw my favs
I sat down to eat
was counting the hole dish before I let my self eat it
left stuff
at least I left stuff
and it really only brought my count up to 
wait in 7 minute is 12am
if I just count it as tomorrow I'll be fine
i'll eat a granola ( Read more... )

 so i actually was awake during the day
that amazing
oh and travis got back to me
supposedly I'm the most random girl ever
I'm taking it as a good thing
oh and Ian is just fucked
like two years ago we were good friends
then we had a drunken make-out in a tent moment
and he freaked because he was unfaithful too Nicole
which by the way I thought was out of ( Read more... )

 I wish my parents would let me have the odd smoke in my room...I understand why they don't...I guess its just selfish of me.
I just hate smoking out my window
I'm quitting gradually but still its a nuisance. I smoke 1 smoke a day...that should count for something.

I am pist
I weigh 95 pound and that was my 1st goal weight last december.
So I wanted to ( Read more... )

Today would be classified in my perception as a hazy day. All blue skys but full of fog if you think of it metaphorically. I can't help but think my hand are well chunky sausage fingers. They just always look swollen. I want pretty hands. I'm never satisfied. I was willing to eat a potato with gravy and ketchup and a thin slice of pork. Then my ( Read more... )

Insomnia, Insomnia oh how you like me so
night comes to think and the tears flow
we weep what we sow
but constriction is all I know
so counting numbers, here we go


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Have you ever felt so content with in a moment, every little problem seems to vanish. I love those days. Unfortunately I had a long awaited,an hour by hour wait to fall a sleep last night. I have become nocturnal and it is not funny. Even my nicotine cravings have switched to night time cravings. so my legs were to stiff to move much but the little ( Read more... )

Ok so I have a plan of what I will be eating
for awhile
I hope I get up at a proper time
so I can actually do some stuff on my to do list

my tummy is eating it self
so disturbing how that pains and pleases me

I'm bored so I think I'll post some more picks
I like photography


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