so its for sure My parents made in absolute
I will not be going to Canadore Collage for Advertising-Creative Media
I'm disappointed but sense I can't run my life without screwing it up they are
I'm not fighting them because clearly they might have a point
They love me I know that

I'M GOING TO BE VOLUNTEERING AT THE OLD SENIOR HOME ONCE OR TWICE A WEEK
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Had a horrible stomach pain around 12pm today ( Read more... )

omg I'm so ashamed of myself
I was going so strong
with nothing to eat
it help when your best-friend
is starving beside you
her tummy growling
puking cause she just can't handle it anymore
so I wok up at 12am and haven't slept sense
her and I staring into the ceiling
when our tummies intertwined in growls
I was in such pain
reminds me that i'm doing ok
till I ( Read more... )

Its funny how the little things in life is what keeps u going
such as a promise from a hansom guy
a motivation from a loved one
I just can't seem to know
but one thing I know is
When I see my self married, I'm married to a strapping young man in his late 20-30
And He is a man
I am around 27 just starting a secure job as a copywriter
Now I see my self with ( Read more... )

I really like having internet friends
there is something about it
you can trust on a whole different level
there not going to call and tell your family and friends your secrets
I have trust issues
thats one of the reasons I broke up with travis before he left for nova scotia
the army I could trust
but all the other months away from me so far away
he is a ( Read more... )

 Ok so I went to the funeral and well it was sad but happy
cause I know my granddad is going to heaven and now he is no longer suffering from cancer
plus he died in my dads arms
so he wasn't alone
smile
everyone loved him
I loved him

My uncle jack is there too
from cancer

and mike my hero
is up there as well
so god bless you all

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Today is my granddad funeral
so I don't know how today is going to go
I can't sleep
yesterday I worked out and eat 321 calories
with two full meals chewed and spit into glasses
had to wait till everyone was asleep to get rid of the evidence
its all because my dad thinks i'm getting skinny again
so he makes me meals to eat
its all in love but its annoying
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So my nana was rushed to the hospital
he ended up coming back
my dad wants me to go see the revern for religous talks
he thinks i'v been through to much and I shouldn't have too
no whats srange
for the past 3 months I put myself through self recovery
read books
tried to fallow the steps
and it made me misserable
wanted to die
but the last week i decided to ( Read more... )

So I got a cell
unlimited texting
So I was wounding if anyone would like to be texting buddies
I need a few girls that text when they need a friend to vent to about family and there eating disorders
I really need this support
really badly
don't worry I won't over abuse the texting
trust me over texting is annoying

so let me know
hugs
xoxo chrisa