my whole body hurts right now. im so tired of being at a war with myself, and literally hating myself so much that it flows over into the other parts in my life ( Read more... )

Its tiring that you NEVER do anything i ask...ever.
its all just becoming bullshit

Today i got into an intense conversation with Derell, and ive come to the realization that peoples intentions make the world fake. it sucks when you live in a world that works in such different ways than i do.

i wish i could understand your relationships with girls. you say she was a bitch to you and that you wernt going to talk to her anymore. yet you still send her text messages and then try and hide them from me.why? it makes me not trust you, your hiding something and therefore know its wrong.i hope this turns out for the better, and you realize what ( Read more... )

nothing has changed. it feel forced, not natural

the first signs of winter are finally starting to show, today was the first time this year that ive shivered when walking out of the house. although i think it was for many different reasons it felt someway comforting. as though cold weather automatically means good times. its kind of amazing to think about time sometimes, the process in which it ( Read more... )

im finally back to being me, im blissfully happy and im in love with life. for the first time i can not care about anything, im along for the ride again. and ive found someone who makes me smile, i couldnt be more pleased :)

ive never been so depressed in my life, i miss you when im not around you, and am wishing i didnt ask that question so we'd still be doing like we were a week ago..perfect. im so broke and even though i got a new job, i dont know how im going to afford the gas money to drive back and forth to work and school let alone buy food,ive lost 7 pounds ( Read more... )

My life has fallen into a complete shit hole, i lost my job for something i didnt do, im broke and cant afford to pay for any of the things i need to pay for. and its weird, that after all we've been through, all the pain you've put me through, you turn out to be the light at the end of the tunnel. although deep down i still have that gut wrenching ( Read more... )

i have got the ultimate plans for fourth of july this year.richard linklater (director of dazed and confused and such) is the brother in law of one of the guys at my work and ive been invited to his fourth of july bash out in bastrop ive already been told stories about how awesome his mansion is and i guess last year quentin tarantino showed up ( Read more... )