i have been waiting for the last two months for you. ive held on even though the pain was unbearable. you've moved on,probably even dating other girls. but when i hang out with my friends i get told that im wrong. you made your bed you just dont want to lay in it. i gave you a chance to be with me without the bull shit, but of course we have to do ( Read more... )

getting high is the only way it seems i can get through my days anymore, to go into this fantasy world where i can push my emotions and thoughts to the back of my head and not care about anything.but when morning comes and im sober its just a scramble of trying to organize all the thoughts of you in my head trying to figure out how i really feel ( Read more... )

a new opportunity has presented itself and i think im going to go with it. this is the one time i dont think i can hold on to the past anymore, i KNOW that in the end its only going to lead to me getting hurt further. im still so confused about so much though.

i can still remember the first night you held my had so vividly, how the air was so crisp and how happy everyone looked. the way my heart jumped and the huge smile that swept across my face. how you laid in the back seat of my car and stroked my hair. that was probably one of the single most happy memories in my life. one of those memories that was ( Read more... )

 This is the moment that you know ( Read more... )

why is loving you so hard? 

im still curious of what you had to get off your chest a few nights ago. but for once i think i can handle burring  the curiosity.
watching you sleep kind of put everything to rest, it makes kind of since though that seeing you being peaceful made me peaceful.

im sorry for turning you into someone you hated being
im sorry for taking a part of you away
im sorry for trying so hard to keep you in my life
and im sorry that you hated being with me towards the end.
this will be my final goodbye

its morning and im still shaking and cant breath.

i have a million thoughts rolling around in my head but i cant even put  a sentence together. i dont know what to do anymore.

Let's dance in style, lets dance for a while ( Read more... )