So I'm slowly finding out that everyone I work with is making more money than me... and it keeps getting explained to me that its because I'm hourly and not salary, but I still think its not fair and I want to shoot them all.. ha not really but yeah. I'm in a strange place, I don't really know whats up, I'm happy and taking care of all my shit, but ( Read more... )

so it really sucks having no one to talk to

couldn't sleep last night and now its six and I'm going to watch the sunrise... woo fun.. ha... yeah anways

Yesterday was interesting.... Work meeting where i got pissed off and a half cause I was barely acknowledged... Worked at the 4 til 6... lame... then at the 8 til 9:30... came home tired but wanting to go the fuck out... called a few peeps... nodda.... couldn't sleep til like 3... sucks ( Read more... )

so I hate work.. I hate having such shitty hours like the fact that I don't go in until 6 and don't get home til one... it sucks... cause I'm always so fucking tired, and never get time to hang out with my friends... Recap of the day... 8AM wake up cause Jon's supposed to come cut trees and paint with me... go back to sleep til like 1... he never ( Read more... )

so its been like forever and a day since I wrote in this... and this is me stating that its gonna start happening more often... cause life is spinning me in all kinds of crazy directions and I'm ready to share my life with the zero people who read this... maybe as I write more I'll ask more people to be my friends, and just maybe more people will ( Read more... )

so.. its my birthday Saturday... HA... sux

so... regression is a bitch... life without meds is hell... I know this now... I have hurt and been mean to just about everyone I love... and I just put it all back on myself... don't know what i'm doing here... don't know how much longer I'm gonna torture myself... and the world... maybe things will get better... maybe they won't... don't know if ( Read more... )

I just want someone to love me.... is that too much to ask for?

So I'm babysitting and I'm way bored... today and yesterday were both very long days... Yesterday I worked from 12-12 haha I was only scheduled til 8 but stayed to close with the manager... then we stayed and watched Fever Pitch, it was cute... but too loud and I got a major head ache :( So I got home around 230(it was pouring outside so I got ( Read more... )