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- I hear horror stories about girls who don't eat - how their hair turns white and their gums bleed. But I feel beautiful, perfect. I am all pale and bone-pale flesh and pale hair and I am light. I am like some fairy thing. I dream about fairies dancing around the house with rib cages showing like baskets under their flesh. I could drift up and ( Read more... )

So today is a new day and its already not so good i mean nothing to complain about but well Colton hasnt texted me today he said he was sick yesterday afternoon he said he would take a nap and text me when he woke up but he hasnt text me since then so i cant help to worryy ( Read more... )

i already ate this morning i have no self control already 420 freaking calories i cant eat for the rest of the day at least i ate them in the morning hopefully i can burn them all off ( Read more... )

Cut my fat away from my body
burn the pieces
and feed me the ashes

i have been trying to be a somewhat normal person and i just cant do it

 god my back hurts like a mother today i swear gosh i want someone to massage it for me! hehe
so about how im doing well i binged yesterday and today i have already been forced to eat chinese food
ugh make me wanna die grrr.

But i will not let it ruin my day i am still going to fast the rest of the day like i planned.

Plus i decided that im going to ( Read more... )

Okay so life isnt too bad
i have an amazing boyfriend now
stephen :]
hes my lifee
he lives in mississippi
but coming to visit soon!
So Ana wise ehh.
i dont know its hard
im binging on soup today
and purge purge purging
i weigh 105 this morning when i checkked
pretty good id say
not perfect never perfect
but getting there :]

im so screwed up that if someone else is happy and they flaunt it in front of people it royally royally pisses me off so bad god i just want to punch something geezus and it should not make me so upset. but hell my brain is not like the rest of the planet go figure.