this morning I woke up to Jared asking me when I was going to start paying rent and me giving him the schpeel about how my mom only allowed me to come down and get a job. The problem, I have nowhere to stay. So, I didnt apply anywhere. Jared and Tommy both asked if I were just going to move in. Im perfectly content sleeping over here and do feel if ( Read more... )

Im in jupiter right now. Its a lot of fun! Jared is sleeping on the couch and I keep drinking beer. We went to the beach at 330am all drunk and had lots of sex. It was great! Then today we went to the beach with Amy and Devon and he led me behind these rocks and we had more sex! It has been really good! I ate some delicious taco bell and I dont ( Read more... )

how do I begin life again, with a clean slate from everything? I have no guy or no guy interested in me, which I am not used to anymore. For the past year, Ive had a dude in my life. Now I dont. Jared doesnt want me anymore. He just wants to be my best friend. That depresses me SO much! If I act overly happy, Im seriously dying inside, I just dont ( Read more... )

sweet life! All Ive got to do is wake up at 8am and attend orientation for college, which will be the most boring three hours in the a.m. Then I get to come home and quickly grab my shit and I can head to Jupiter. Yippee!!! Tomorrow is going to rock! I cant wait to surprise Matt with his sweet gift that even I looked through. He has made me a Wu ( Read more... )

Im trying really hard to not have a stroke at the moment. I called my mom and asked her to come home to help me go to the doctors and she sounded fine with that. I should have known better. As soon as that bitch came home, she started yelling at me!!! She yelled at me at the doctors, on the ride to and from the doctors and everywhere else in ( Read more... )

wish me luck! Im going to the emergency clinic. I just fell while taking my dog outside for a walk. I dont know whats wrong but Im just hoping they tell me that I got overheated or something dumb. I hope there isnt anything really wrong!

omg!!! could my mom suck any more at driving? Well, I could only hope not or I wont have a car in a week. She got into a little fumble with a truck. Apparantly the truck ripped off my right side mirror. I want her to bring home my car NOW! I dont trust her driving my car EVER again!!! Why does she fucking suck? I also got my voice back, slightly. I ( Read more... )

FFFUUUCCCKKK!!! I need to get my voice back! Im not sick but I have laryngitis. God dammit! ooooooohhhh, AND I had an insanely HOT sex dream with Jay in it last night. He is a hottie but he has absolutely NO interest in me. Hes fun to work with up here. Hes definately a cool cat  :)

fuck man! Im getting a little sick. Im losing my voice and I have a minor fever. Thank goodness I have tomorrow off! Im drinking vitamin C all day. I have to be well by wednesday when I go back down to jup. I feel bad cuz theres this EXTREMELY cute girl who wants to hang out with me tonight(for the first time) but I just want to drink nyquil and go ( Read more... )

Im so excited! Jared told me tonight that he cant wait to see me on wednesday when I come down. I really believe that me and him were meant to be! He also told me that he wanted to fuck the shit out of me, marathon style. Thats great too :) We are going to spend the night on the beach next week. Its going to rule!