Life takes funny turns sometimes. Often, I've felt my life takes the normal twists and jumps, and while not overly fun, they do seem like fairly dealable stresses ( Read more... )

So last night, Ian and I decided it would be fun to watch a movie with dinner. Not an unusual occurance at all, and we decided The Forbidden Kingdom might be a good pick. It haad come via netflicks earlier in the day. We were bolstered by the knowledge that both Jackie Chan and Jet Li were in it. I later remembered that Jackie Chan did the Tuxedo ( Read more... )

So, today is my tenth day. That means my counts are the lowest they'll be during the whole chemo cycle. In the past, I've had infections, fevers and all kinds of uphappiness. I've also had nothing happen, like the last three or four tenth days. But needless to say, each tenth day is a little tense, me wondering if something will happen or if the ( Read more... )

Well, not really, I still have five years of check ups and that sort of thing, but my chemotherapy is officially completed!!!!!!! Wahooooooo!! I cannot express how happy and excited and thrilled I am to be announcing this! And all of this energy is just about all the energy I have left, because wow this time around really smacked me upside the head ( Read more... )

So when all of this cancer madness started way back in April (has it been that long already!?!?!) I was given a purple, plastic bracelet telling the world what kind of port I have. A port is where they put the chemo in, it's implanted in my chest and leads to a major artery, you can only seen a few little bumps where it is. Anyway, I guess I got a ( Read more... )

So I woke up this morning, again way way too early for my exhausted body, and couldn't seem to stop crying. I'm not sure why, as this week leads up to my last appointment, not my first or even a middle one. I think it's a mix of relief and nerves and my poor little brain is just so tired it doesn't know how to cope with big heavy emotions right now ( Read more... )

So, I went for a drive today. This may seem tiny, insignificant, people do it every day so why is this chick so excited about it? Because, I haven't driven since April and I was put on about 14 different drugs that caution the use of heavy machinery while taking them. I threw caution to the wind today though and drove the 30 seconds to my pharmecy ( Read more... )

A blue jay was hopping around on the roof of the building across from ours. I watched it for about 15 minutes until it flew away. I love blue jays, they are the first sign that fall is coming, is almost here. Fall and winter are my favorite times of year, and I can feel my energy coiling underneath the chemicals and drugs and icky feelings. It's ( Read more... )

So, in two days I have my second to last chemo session. It's so close I can almost taste it. I'm so unbelievably excited, it's unreal. I'm also so exhausted, it is also unreal. I haven't been posting much and that's why. I actually haven't been writing as much recently either. It sucks because I have all these ideas and I've been doing a ton of ( Read more... )

I woke up and started getting ready for work this morning, and I realized I have this weird thought process as far as what I wear right now. A lot of things, I look at and think "I'll wear that when I'm better." Pants, sweaters, shirts, you name it, tons of my favorite clothes fall into that category, as does jewelry and make up. I started to ( Read more... )