Okay, so I totally abandoned this thing. I know. Horrible. Well to say the least I have been the same weight since I stopped. 160-163ish range. So at least I can say I maintained my weight. But I need to go lower. Gah. I don't know why I slipped up. I am so so so so bad. But that's okay, I am getting back on track. Starting today. I've consumbed ( Read more... )

My birthday is today which means eating = absolute shit today. I'm okay with it though, I am going to let it slide, you only turn 17 once right? I am at 170 (2 pounds up from this morning) but if I drink lots of water before I go to bed, I should be back where I started tomorrow. Tomorrow I am planning on eating nothing, nadda. Huzzah. I want to be ( Read more... )

Bah, I've lost motivation recently. I don't know if I want to join the volleyball team, since apparently my weightloss is tiny. I want to be 150 lbs by the time the tryouts come. And that's about 23 lbs. I can do it, if I really really try. I want to be skinny, and I can be skinny. Even if it (sadly) takes me longer than I want to. I just can't ( Read more... )

Well apparently I know why I never tell people who I like. Well that's right because I always get the shit end of the stick back. I got really really excited when the person was first talking to me - and then I just crashed. I didn't know that I would be hurt this bad. I mean I didn't even really know the kid - yet I am utterly crushed. What the ( Read more... )

*Glee* I have the biggest crush on a boy. Gaaaah. He's a year younger than me (in grade 11... I'm in grade 12) and I don't know he's perfect. I think so at least. I know he knows who I am but I am kinda iffy on everything. I went to this bush party the other night, and he walked up to the fire where I was standing to get his back-pack, and then ( Read more... )

So instead of going to class today I was stuck running around the school for Students' Council. Basically it was non-stop from 9 this morning til 4 this afternoon. Phewww. Way better than sitting on my ass through all these classes. So apparently from that little adventure I lost another pound [since I didn't eat all day] and I am approximately 176 ( Read more... )

Uhm, so I kind of abandoned my jounral, which evidently helped me abandon thinking about the way I ate. And I just began to not care - usually that's a good thing (in a sense I guess?) but I hate myself more for doing it. Blah - the 10 pounds I lost, I gained all back. Motivation. That's what I am using it as. I know that if I eat what I want this ( Read more... )

Woo... I'm a failure? Sweet deal. I broke my fast on hour 19. Blah. I am so hopeless. I started again last night, but I am not going to count it as a fast until I reach the 24 hour mark. Then I can go from there. So right now, I am just kind of "gliding". If that makes sense. Good luck everyone else with your restricting/fasting :)

Actually, if I ( Read more... )

180-177. My body just doesn't want to pick what it would like to be. Blah. 177 or lower would be fine with me. But it is my fault, I have been letting everything slide. 1000+ calories today, and I feel so effin' sick from it. I got food poisoning the other day, and I am having some serious cramps. So that's it. Fasting tomorrow (technically started ( Read more... )

( This is a list of things that are making me feel blah.. you don't have to read, I just needed somewhere to put them down )